WARNING ⚠️
if your depressed or anything don't read this. This part can trigger something... don't do anything like this.
Y/n
I've been facing a lot of problems right now and I don't know what to do. I also cut my wrists, it makes me feel better. Im satisfied to hurt myself because I can't feel anything anymore.
"Hey y/n you good?" Mattia snap his fingers on my face i jump a little
"Yeah im good" i said and start to eat again
"I know your not really good. Im here y/n im willing to listen to you" robert whisper to me i smile at him
He's been with me since we were young i think elementary days? He is my best friend. I felt really bad to him because im not being true with him, I didn't opened up with him about me and my relationship with my boyfriend and my father.
Well my boyfriend? He was abusing me, if i made a small mistake he will hurt me. Same as my dad, if i talk back he will lock me on my room or hit me. He was not really like that until mom died and have a new wife which is verbally abusing me im tired. I can't even focus on school, I always need to wear sweater to hide the bruises and the cuts. I didn't notice i was crying, before the boys, plus taylor and vic notice i got up and run to the restroom. I locked myself on a cubicle, i cried for hours.
"I want to end this pain... I can't live my life.... I can't live on this fucking life" i run my hand to my hair and pull it lightly
I heard my phone rung, it was Robert and others trying to text me and calls me but I didn't answer any of them. It was dismissal I stayed there for another hour then i walk out. It was already dark i pull up my hood. I don't care if someone follow me with a gun or anything. Their just giving me a favor if they let me die. While i was walking i stop at the empty park i saw a rope i grab it and tied it on a tree. My phone rung I answered.
"Y/n where the fuck are you?" Mike said my boyfriend he was mad
"Well let me see... im about to see satan" i weakly smile
"What the fuck?" He said i hang up the call
I step in i was looking at the hole of the rope. I was doubting, I don't why, i was now tearing up. I jump when i hear my phone rung again.
"Y/n where are you? I didn't saw you in class. Do ypu have any problem? You run out crying. Please tell me where you are or are you okay?" I hear roberts voice
"Im sorry if you have to see that, I've been keeping a lot. Im in pain, and this pain will gonna end now. Im tired... im done facing any problems and being abused" i crack
"Don't tell that... please tell me where you are" he said
"Im in the park... but i would like to say goodbye robert thank you for everything" i smile i hang up
The sky is very beautiful, I glanced at it one more time. I will not going to see this. I took one step and hold the rope but i was doubting again. Is this right? If i end my life would i be free? Am i really leaving the people around me that supports me so much? Is this the end? Can i be happy when im not here anymore?
There's a lot of questions running on my head that make me step back. Am i really going to leave the only boy i loved and who truly cared for me? I can't do this
"What am i doing?" I put my hand on my mouth and cry i sat on the bench
This isn't what I want. I want to have a better life with someone that will be there for me, that will be there for me through thick and thin. I sob into my hands
"Y/n! Where are you?! Please don't be dead" i hear robert he was crying i hate it when he cry "y/n! Oh my god!" He run to me and hug me it was comforting "im glad you didn't to it" he cried
"Im glad I didn't do it" I whisper while i run my hand to his hair
"Please tell me everything" he said
I tell him all the things I've been keeping inside me. He was shocked about it, a tear run down to his face he hug me tight
"Im sorry... you should've told us or me" he said
"It's okay... i also don't want y'all worrying about me" i said i stare at the rope " I didn't really know why suicide is the only thing i can do to end this. Maybe i think I can't have a good life in the future" i whisper
"Hey... you can have a better future, you just need to tell us. This is tha start of your new life." He said im confused
"What? How?" I ask him He held my hand
"Im going to let you stay at home. Im sure my mom will going to let you stay there because of this situation" he said "I can't look at you like this... in pain. You deserve to have a better life, all of us deserve to have a better life. It's too early to end your life y/n. Im proud of you because you controlled your emotion. Imagine how my life be without you around" he added he was sincered " you deserve to be treated like a princess" he hold my cheek with his touch he makes me shivers
"Thank you robert. Thank you for being there for me" i hug him
"Im always here with you y/n I won't let anyone hurt you anymore. B-because i love you so much" he said i look at him
"Did you really said that?" I ask he nodded "oh my god... i love you too robert so much" i said to him
"Really?" I nodded "fuck you're so perfect. Im always going to protect you" he said and kiss my head
"Guys! Y/n oh my god" others called us "im glad your okay!!" Vic and taylor hug me they look at the rope they were shocked "oh my god" they all hug me
"Kid im gonna be honest, im proud of you" mattia said they are all tearing up
"We're all proud of you" alvaro said with a salute
"I love you guys so much! Thank you..." i said we had a group hug
