Braided

Second Day of Highschool

Dear Diary,

I've figured out a system that works. Go to the homeroom, grab a pass, go to the bathroom Be a ghost and be invisible. Well, I wasn't to invisible because this girl Shawna handed me some flyer for a female Christian club then later she actually sat with me for lunch when she saw me head outside alone A friend or at least trying to make a friend makes me actually seem normal she really wants me to come to her club but I don't know if God would really want me there I still pray but sometimes I feel like it is never answered of course I didn't tell her this but I told her I would consider. I then saw him walk down the steps and I ran to the bathroom to throw up. I hope she doesn't think I'm rude.
Seeing him just puts my senses into crazy mode the first time I actually talked to him was when Sophie and I got caught we were out past curfew doing our usual swim when we started to head back to the cabin to find him taking sips out of a large bottle the stench of alcohol and cologne radiating off him I remember the look of shock on his face and him asking what we were doing and we assured him that wouldn't tell anyone he then offered us some of whatever was in that bottle we both had a crush on him at that point we both didn't want to look uncool in front of him so we took a couple of sips the liquid burned as it went down my throat as sophie drank it she half gagged he laughed he never took his eyes off me those piercing black eyes had something dangerous.
I wish I would have realized what that danger meant back then but after that, he took our phone numbers and told us if we ever wanted to come to drink with him to let him know we both hung out with him together a couple more times actually almost every night. If we weren't doing anything just us we would be in our little swim club at night. We would sit on the rock, have a couple of drinks then jump off of the cliff. Sophie first then him I would jump last into the water and he would catch me I always felt this little jump in my heart as he grabbed me then we would all wrestle each other but he always took a special interest in me thank Jesus Sophie never noticed but he seemed to really like me it sucked I couldn't talk to her about him and the way he looked at me because she liked him too maybe I can talk to Shawna about it. Maybe I will go to that club tomorrow.