𝓢𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓲𝓹𝓲𝓽𝔂 (Book 1 Soulmate Series) *Ongoing*

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Namjoon told me that through my Emotional Tether to Jimin, I could sense what he was feeling no matter where he was. Apparently at the cost of my original power of emotional mind reading. The doctors still didn't know what the hell triggered the tether. One thing that was bothering me is that I can't feel really anything when he's sleeping. Which he was doing a lot of. Rarely awake through the next few days.

I finally convinced Kookie and Tae to take turns "watching me" so they could take showers and sleep. Everyone else stayed at the hotel and occasionally came to visit. They didn't want the room crowded like it was before, the tiny hospital room barely fit everyone the last time. Jimin still wasn't allowed visitors, which sucked cause all I wanted was to hold him and tell him I loved him.

The nurse came in to give me my bland hospital lunch. I normally gave my Jell-o to Taehyung since it was one of his favorites but, Jungkook was with me today. The dull looking "healthy" food was sitting on my tray. I grabbed the spoon and took a spoonful of what may be either oatmeal or mashed potatoes that didn't mix correctly. I popped the spoonful of gosh knows what into my mouth. The flavorless food did nothing to arouse my taste buds. I sighed heavily as I decided to give up on trying to eat any of this food.

Jungkook came barging through the door with a whole tray of food from the cafeteria. "Noona look. I snuck you some real food." He laughed, placing the tray on the little corner table. His bunny smile stretching from ear to ear. He was always joyful and his mood always rubbed off on me. I smiled warmly at him as he quickly shut the door behind him and rushed the tray over to me. "Here, here eat up. I got enough for both of us!" He had smuggled me in a delicious hamburger and fries with a sweet slice of pie.

"This looks fantastic Kookie! Thank you. I didn't expect this." I dug in and practically inhaled my meal. I didn't even realize I had been so hungry. I guess after having to eat hospital food for a couple days made me famished for real food. Jk watched me from the chair in the corner as I scarfed down my food.

"Noona do you worry about Jiminie?" I halted mid bite into my fry. I didn't know why he asked this all of a sudden. The obvious answer was screaming throughout my head.

'Of course I worry! I worry about him every second of the day. Every ounce of my being wanted to be next to him. I wanted to so desperately stroke the strands of his beautiful and soft hair. I worried that he was gonna be injured for the rest of his life because of me! Maybe even worse...die.'

I swallowed the bite of food I had in my mouth. I took a slow deep centering breath as I tried to not get emotional. "All day everyday." I looked down at my hands and fidgeted with my nail. "I've been trying to get my mind off of it. It will only stress me out more. Especially since I can't see him.." My voice cracked and faded out as the tears I tried so hard to keep in, escaped.

"We can't see him either. So I mean you're not alone in that one. I figured you worry more than the rest of us because.. well you know. Most of the guys don't really like hospitals. They send their love and support though. They just- can't deal right now. We all can't sleep right. Our everything is flipped right now. Having one less member right now is hitting home for us. It's difficult to be honest. Taehyung and I come here to keep you company, not only cause we care. We also feel somewhat responsible and protective of you." He looked out the window and sighed heavily. His shoulders slightly slumping down  and his breathing returning to its normal steady pace. "Just wanted to know how you were feeling. Sorry for bringing it up." He glanced down at his phone, picking it up and standing up abruptly. "I'm sorry I need to take this. Excuse me." He hurried out the door and practically ran down the hall.

Flash

Groggy
Confused
Cold
Anxious

'Jimin he was awake for real. Probably for the first time in awhile.' He had only small temporary moments of consciousness the last few days. I didn't consider him AWAKE until now. I could feel his emotions like they were my own. Stronger than anything I experience with my own power. I wanted to see him and I knew if I asked the answer would always be no.