This is Me

Stress, Stress and Stress!

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I have had soooooo much on! I have been pulling out my hair. Literally. There are days where I wake up and I think to myself, 'I can't do this anymore. The world is a better place without me' and there are days where I wake up and think, '.I can do this! What doesn't kill me will make me stronger!'
- I don't even know what's going on anymore. I have been feeling so confused lately. This probably sounds really weird but it's true...
I had my french exam last week and it was a speaking exam.
The problem with social anxiety is that it is such an overwhelming and terrifying fear and the worst thing is that it is a mental illness. This means it is not seen by others around it.
I have had social anxiety for 2 years now. And people still don't believe me.
(A/N: if there is anyone out there struggling with a mental illness or knows someone who is, feel free to message me. I am happy to give advice and I am a VERY good listener :) )
The morning of my french exam I had a panic attack. For people who don't know what a panic attack is, here is a link:
http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/stress-anxiety-depression/Pages/understanding-panic-attacks.aspx
A panic attack is truly terrifying. It is a sudden overwhelming fear of everything. The people around you, thoughts, situations.
Physical symptoms are:
Violently shaking, sweating, short breaths, dry throat, shivering, crying, chest pains...the list goes on - those are a few of mine.

Whenever I have had a panic attack my mum has never believed me. It feels like a stab in the chest how my mum just stands there shouting at me and telling me to stop faking a panic while I'm curled up in a ball violently shaking. It hurts how she says I'm not having a panic attack when I clearly am.

My French exam went okay. I got a D. Even though my target was a C, I suppose it's not too bad. One of my friends got a G. I have to retake my exam on the 15th December. And I am TERRIFIED.

On top of this I am swamped with art coursework. In every waking minute I have that I'm not revising for my French retake I am doing art coursework. None stop art. It is taking up my life.

Next week I have a Science exam, Maths Exam and History exam. Fun! - NOT!

I am writing and I don't even know how to put my feelings into words...
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Sorry that once again it's short. I have to get some sleep now. It's 11:15pm where I am and I haven't slept properly all week!!

Goodnight lovely readers!

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