Sanem cleaned up while Jan sat on the couch, watching TV.
After she was done, she gazed over at him and let out a quiet sigh. She wondered...how would things be if she confessed to him?
The thought of his cold response and rejection scared her, just thinking about it. She wanted to tell him that she loved him so badly.
'I'll do it...definitely before we divorce, I have to at least tell him...' She thought. Chances were that they weren't going to see each other again after the divorce, so she might as well tell him when she had the chance to. It was better than keeping it to herself and holding in all the guilt.
Jan glanced back slightly and narrowed his eyes when he just saw her standing there, seeming to be in deep thought. What was she thinking about?
He stood up, grabbed his keys on the coffee table and walked over to her.
Sanem was taken by surprise when she saw him coming towards her and reached out his keys to her.
"Go out." He said bluntly.
"...wh...what?" She blinked.
"You usually ask me if you could go out on the weekends anyway, so go out."
"Um...but-,"
"We're divorcing in less than a week. It's better if you go out with your friends and get used to having your life back. You can even go visit your parents if you want. Come back by ten tonight." He gently tossed the keys to her.
Sanem caught them and grasped them gently in her hand. This was the first time that he had ever let her go out without her asking. But...she wasn't that happy about it. The way he included the divorce into it...it made her feel horrible. 'Get used to having my life back?' She repeated his words in her thoughts.
"...ok..." She said without thinking.
Sanem turned around and went to sit back down on the couch. The only reason why he did that was because he didn't want to bore her anymore. He might as well get used to not having her here anymore, so having her go out was good practice for the both of them.
After a while, he heard the door open and close.
...that would be the exact sound when she leaves. She'll take everything that belonged to her and leave.
She'll even take his heart.
Sanem closed the door behind her and stared at the ground sadly. "I guess...I should get used to having my old life back, then..."
Honestly, she couldn't even imagine life without Jan anymore. She couldn't imagine being with anyone else but him.
But of course, that wouldn't happen. In less than a week...they wouldn't be together anymore.
Sanem ignored that god-awful heartache and walked over to the car.
In about 40 minutes, she arrived at her parents' place. It had been a long time since she last saw them...and to be honest, she once held a grudge against them for marrying her off to Jan.
But none of that mattered now.
She got out of the car and walked over to the front door. Taking a deep breath, she knocked a few times.
No one answered.
She knocked a few more times and then stepped back when the door slowly opened. Her mom stood there with wide eyes. "Sanem...?"
"Hey, mom." She managed to force a smile.
Her mom stayed quiet for a while before inviting her in. Sanem saw her dad sitting on the couch, staring over at her."Come, sit." Her mom guided her to the living room.
