Jan couldn't stop worrying all night.
She didn't even come home. It worried him to no end, and he honestly wanted to call to check up on her, but he was responsible for telling her to go out in the first place.
'I hope she's ok...she's probably just sleeping over at her parent's house or something.' Jan reassured himself.
Geez, if he was going to be this paranoid with her gone for only one night, he didn't know how he would bear it if she left for good.
He glanced at the clock and sighed, realizing it was already 4 in the morning. 'How did I even stay up this long?' He shook his head and sat up. He was sure he wasn't going to sleep anytime soon, so he ended up going downstairs to get a drink of water.
Jan set the cup down in the sink after he was done and ran his fingers through his hair. 'She should be here in a few hours. I don't need to worry...' He thought to himself, but what the hell, he was really bothered by it. He reached in his pocket to get his cell phone, but hesitated. It wouldn't make any sense if he called her to come home if he was the one who told her to go out.
"Damn it." He cursed and walked over to the couch. He sat down and turned the TV on...he'll be going to work in two hours anyway, so he decided to just kill some time and wait to see if Sanem gets home.
"If she doesn't come before I go to work...then...I'll call her."
Sanem's eyes fluttered open. She was a bit confused when she didn't recognize her surroundings, but then remembered she was at Aiyhan's place.
"Ah, I fell asleep..." Then she gasped and quickly stood up. "Jan's going to be mad!" She looked over at the clock and she still had at least an hour before Jan went to work. "Geez, why didn't Aiyhan wake me up?" She groaned frantically and got her stuff before running out the apartment without saying bye to Aiyhan.
Besides, that night when he held her...he sounded like he was honestly concerned about her staying so late. She didn't want to worry him again.
Jan tapped his foot impatiently. If she wasn't here in ten minutes, he seriously needed to call her. And he had to get ready for work, too. It felt weird not having her here in the morning.
'How am I supposed to handle it when I have to live without her everyday?' Jan was scared that the divorce date was coming closer and closer. She could finally find her own happiness, but it'll be difficult for him to get through the whole situation.
"I'm the only one who's in love anyways..." He muttered to himself.
After a few more minutes of waiting, he decided to call her. He pulled out his cell phone and slowly scrolled down her number. Just as he was going to press the call button, he heard the lock on the door turn.
Jan quickly turned around and to his relief, Sanem opened the door and came in. He cleared his throat softly and maintained a calm expression...he didn't want her to know that he had stayed up all night for her.
He got off the couch and walked over to her as she was taking off her shoes.
Sanem looked up to see him in front of her and she made a little apologetic bow. "Sorry...I fell asleep at Aiyhan's last night. I didn't even call you to tell you anything...I'm sorry..." She apologized softly, not wanting him to get mad.
Jan just gazed at her, trying to calm down his worries and doubts. She was home now, so everything was ok. "Go wash up and change. I'll get breakfast ready."
Sanem stared at him in surprise. He didn't even sound angry at all. "B...but...you have to go to work. I'll make breakfast-,"
"I've got plenty of time." He simply stated before turning around to walk to the kitchen.
Sanem didn't even have time to respond back and she just stood there. 'He's not angry with me?' Well, he was the one who asked her to go out, so of course he would be expecting her to come late. Why was she even getting her hopes up that he would get worried? They were divorcing anyways, so obviously he wouldn't care about where she went anymore.
'I'm so stupid...getting my hopes up for nothing when we're divorcing in just 4 days...' She thought and shook her head before going upstairs to get ready.
Jan sat at the table with the food all ready. He glanced at the clock...he had about 45 minutes until he had to go to work. 'I have to tell Sanem about the party, too.' He thought as he heard her footsteps coming downstairs.
"Thanks for making breakfast...I'm sorry I didn't come earlier." Sanem apologized before sitting down
"...It's fine. By the way, I've already informed our parents about us."
Sanem nodded. "I know. I visited them yesterday...they said they'll consider having blind dates for me."
Jan clenched his hands into fists. 'Blind dates?' He was kind of mad at her parents. Why couldn't they just let her be happy and let her choose someone she really likes? And frankly, she was still young...it was a waste of her life being forced into relationships like this. She had already wasted two years in a dull marriage with him...he wanted her to truly be happy.
After a silent meal,Jan finished his last few bites and stood up, walking past her to go upstairs to get ready for work.
Sanem set her fork down quietly and she stared down at her lap. He didn't even respond to her having blind dates. Although she knew he had absolutely no feelings for her, and he wanted her to be with another guy to be happy, she just wished that he'd be a little jealous.
...like that day they went shopping. He was so possessive over her, and it made her happy that he actually cared.
But now, it all didn't seem to matter anymore.
After a few minutes of sitting there quietly, she heard Jan coming down. Sanem slowly got up and walked over to him. "...I'll make dinner." She said the usual.
Ja froze just as he was slipping on his shoes. "...that black dress we bought that day we went shopping. Wear it."
Sanem blinked. "W...Why?"
"In two days, my company will be having a small party. They want me to bring you, so wear it to the event." Jan simply stated before resuming to putting his shoes on.
"...but, don't they know we're divorcing?"
"I haven't told them yet." He replied before grabbing his coat and opening the door.
Sane. didn't say anymore as she watched him go.
When Jan shut the door close, he let out a sigh. 'Well, that was such an unpleasant way of telling her.' He shook his head at his cowardly self and walked over to the car.
He yawned and knew he would be dead exhausted after work. It was the first time he had gone a full 24 hours without sleeping.
But, it was worth it. Knowing she was ok after a whole sleepless night, that was worth it.
Sanem lifted the curtains a little and watched until his car drove away.
"A party?" She narrowed her eyes.
It's the first time in their marriage that they've gone to a formal party. And to her knowledge, all formal parties had a dance. She blushed at the thought. Would she and Jan have to dance?
That would be so awkward.
Staying that close to him, moving to the music, being in each others' arms...it was just a little too much out of their comfort zone. Her heart was beating fast just thinking about the image. 'Gosh...what am I thinking? Even if that were to happen, it would mean nothing to him.' She pushed away her happy thought and walked over to the kitchen to clean up.
...however, a little part of her hoped that something, a miracle, would happen between them. Even if he were to fall in love with her for just a mere second...that would make her happy beyond belief.
;)
Next chapter is full of romance.
So look forward to it!
