Jan just stood there in shock with wide eyes. "...what?"
Sanem felt a rush of nervousness wash over her. Was he seriously gonna make her repeat that? Her lips trembled and she averted her eyes down to the floor. "I...I know that it might be a little weird to you, but...I'm telling the truth." She stuttered. "We're divorcing after tomorrow, and I..." She paused and took a deep breath. Her voice was starting to quiver and she was scared to say the words. She knew she would be left heartbroken if he rejected her right now, but she had to do it.
"...I just wanted to tell you my feelings before that happens..."
Jan stayed quiet, just staring at her. He didn't know what to say or what to do. He was happy, confused, and shocked all at the same time. She loves him. She really did feel the same way.
Sanem clenched the sides of her dress tightly when he wouldn't say anything. "It's ok if you don't feel the same. I keep telling myself that you do nice things because you actually have feelings for me, too, but I don't want to keep deceiving myself anymore. Reality isn't that perfect." She cleared her throat and took a step forward.
"U...um...I'm gonna go sleep over Aiyhan's place tonight. I'm sorry for making things awkward like this..." She quietly apologized and quickly walked passed him to the stairs. She could already feel her tears forming at the corner of her eyes. She didn't want to cry in front of him.
He didn't say anything. So of course...he didn't feel anything towards her. Everything that happened at the dance was just in the spur of the moment. 'It's enough...that one moment with him was enough. I'll just keep that memory with me.' Sanem thought herself and smiled sadly.
Jan's hands clenched into fists as he heard her footsteps going up the stairs and the bedroom door closing shut. He was honestly too shocked too even think of anything.
Sanem quickly wiped away the tears that were dying to fall. She took a few deep breaths to calm down and finished packing her things to sleepover at Aiyhan's.
"...what was I expecting. That he'd actually say he loves me back?" She scoffed at her own stupidity. Her eyes averted down to her ring and letting out a sorrowful sigh, she took off her ring and set it on the small dresser beside the bed. She also took off her heart necklace and placed it beside her ring. '...I wanted to keep it, but...I think it'll be a bit too much.'
She grabbed her bag of clothes and then went out the bedroom door. She peered down to see if Jan was still standing there and sighed in relief when she didn't see him.
She quietly walked down the stairs and just as she was about to put her shoes on, she saw Jan sitting over at the living room. She slowly made her way over to him and stood quietly at the back of him. "...I'll come back early to make breakfast..." She simply replied and hesitated a bit before turning back to go.
Jan sat there for a few moments, pondering on what to do. He just couldn't let her leave like that...he knew that she was probably very confused right now also. So much was happening in just this one whole night. He needed to stop being such a coward and actually make the first move. She was probably so heartbroken when he just stood there without saying anything to her.
He gripped the side of his pants as he heard her footsteps walking away. When the door opened and then shut closed, Jan stood up. '...if...I don't do this now...I'll lose her.'
Immediately, without another thought, he got up after her. He quickly opened the door and saw that she was already in the car. Damnit, his employee didn't bring back their other car yet. He watched as she drove out of the garage parking way and he quickly ran, trying to catch up as she drove down the road.
