Express before it's late, love before it's gone, feel before it ends, hold before it leaves. Regina a 15 year old high schooler finds it difficult to cope up with her feelings and turns towards the horrific world of drugs.She loses the real her caus...
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Ughhhh another day at school. Worst part of my life is waking up. It would have been better if I could sleep eternally. Atleast I would not have to deal with the shit in life. I sit and take a sip of my coffe. My eyes are puffy and red of course it takes time to get off the drugs. I feel a little like vomitting and so instead of eating my breakfast I rush to keep books in my bag. Fuck I'm like late the 50th time.
The number one rule of my life, the 5 minute rule. I give myself five minutes to be emotional and cry or whatever. As the five minutes are over that's it now gotta be a gangsta the whole day. I lean closely towards the mirror and try hard not to look like a stoner but washing face can't help. Alright I pick up my back take a last glance at the mirror and go sit in the car. Staring out of the window allowing the hurtful thoughts to fuck me up. You know once you do drugs being sober feels like you are on fire. I try not to think about drugs. When I did drugs last night my life was in technicolour now it's black and white.
People don't realise this but loneliness, it's underrated.
Every now and then it hits me. I'm the one that got away but I guess being lonely fits me.
Reaching the class I find some bitch dared to keep her back on my seat. I get pissed off and throw her back at one corner and then keep mine. She without any interruption leaves. Okay I know most of you must be hating me for this but there's a deep story behind the way I act and behave.
After the attendance I go in the senior building just to check if Jack is present or not. Oh he is absent. That's sad. Wait why the fuck am I concerned about him. Why do I care. Gotta stop myself. This will probably turn into a heartbreak. I couldn't love someone cause I might break. Fuck it.
On my way back to the my class I meet my bad bitch Bianca in the corridor.
"Heyyy How are you Regina."- Bianaca
"Fine. How you doing." - Regina
"I'm good. Wait why are you lying. I can see you are not good. What happened? You look sick. Now don't tell me you miss Aaron."- Bianaca
"Yeah you got it right."- Bianaca
"Oh come on use a boy to forget him as simple as that. "- Bianaca
"Seriously?"- Regina
"No, use two or three."- Bianaca
We laugh out loud. Then bell rings and all the students come out through class. The corridor is full now. We continue laughing.
Oh fuck here comes Payton. I hate him. He keeps on flirting shamelessly.
He comes straight towards us with a bunch of books in his hands.
"Hey girls how are you."- Payton
"Fine." - me and Bianca
Bianca looks at me weirdly. She knows he has a crush on me and I hate him. I look at Bianaca and make a bitchy face. The look you give to your friend when someone is being annoying.
"You must be missing me Regina. Afterall you like me so much." - Payton
The whole crowds eyes were stick on us as if some movie is going on. Everyone back bitching. Ha who gives a fuck.
" Why do you think I like you?"- Regina
"You always look at me and smile."- Payton
"If she looks at you and smile that doesn't mean she likes you. She might be picturing you on fire." - Bianaca(laughs)
All the students in the corridor laugh out loud at Payton. Lol we roasted him so bad. He looks pissed off.
"Exactly"- Regina( laughing)
Payton finally leaves.
You know what the saddest thing about today is. Rose is absent. Why ?Is she sick probably recovering from the breakup. Damn I miss her. A day without her feels wasted. I honestly feel so alone. I will check her out this evening.
Here we go again the basketball practice.
"Come it's just 10 rounds. Girls increase your stamina."- coach
All my teammates were fine running and I went out of breath at 2 rounds. Fuck!I was gasping for breath and looked like I was gonna faint. I can't run no more. I cut out and relax for sometime.
"How the hell will you even play? You got tired in just 2 rounds. It's just pre- workout. Seriously."- Ammy
"Damn I know."- Regina
I leave the practice and successfully escaped without anyone knowing. My system doesn't seem to support me.
I quickly go to the bathroom of our school. Glance if someone is there. It's all solitude like my heart. I Take out the ciagrette and lighter from my sock anxiously. Can't wait I just wanna smoke else my heart will fall out. Like what else is there to do.
10 mins later after smoking 3 ciagrettes .....
Just one more than I'm gonna go to class and pretend like everything's cool and chew my bubblegum.
Wait someone's here. Holy fuck I can't get the smoke out. The whole bathroom is full of smoke and some teacher.....
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