Zayn Malik is my best friend?(A 1D fan fic)

Part 15

so um yea hi.

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*Candi's POV*

'No' I think to myself pulling away from Zayn. I watch Niall's eyes widen.

"WE HAVE TO GO AFTER HER!" Zayn yells grabbing his keys. "Where did it look like she was Tessa where?"

He continues frantically running into the car. Tessa and Zayn continue the conversation and all I can do is sit in the back seat hoping and praying that we're not too late. When thinking about this is makes me think about all the times she's been there for me and how now I'm not there for her. How I'm the cause of this. As soon as I think this my phone pings with a video message from her.

"Hey, I love you I do. This isn't about you or Zayn or any of that it's about me finally realizing that I'm an idiot. I can't do anything right, I fuck everything up and the fact that I'm so selfish so so selfish. I've been selfish my entire life and every time I turn around if things aren't the way I want them I throw a fit and destroy things. I destroy relationships and happiness and just everything. This is my last selfish act, if you want try and stop me but this is my way of destroying myself. I wanna see who gives a fuck but then again I don't. I'm done putting you guys through shit so if you stop this I'm still leaving. I love you and thank you for everything."

She says crying towards the end. The last thing I see is her face tears running down it. I want to cry I do but I think I'm over this. I've seen it all before. This isn't the first time she's tried to commit the only thing that's different is she seems a lot more serious. After I tell myself this I start crying. I realize I'm losing someone who promised to always be there for me. We pull up in front of her childhood home and burst into it. I watch as Zayn leaps up the stairs worriedly. He gets to the top and pushes the door open. He sinks down to his knees next to her and feels for a pulse.

"I can't find a pulse."

He says. He chokes on his words and starts to cry.

"This isn't our fault Z.Z. she said so. Don't cry."

I state calmly. I don't belief her. I feel like ever since our last fight we haven't been close and she started to get more upset more often her anxiety started to affect her more and she seemed more off. As Tessa calls the paramedics I realize I don't really care about this situation. I don't care if she tried to kill herself. I cried because I felt like I had to, I don't care.