Sinking

Ep. 9 Friends don't know how you taste.

"Don't stop."

Allicer's tongue thrust inside her sending a ripple of electricity from her core to her toes.
Feeling lightheaded from the mind-blowing orgasm she just received, she merely stared into the blue sky. It was actually very hot today, but she didn't mind the heat. She needed a good tan anyway, but she made sure to put on her pink nylon sunhat to protect her face from sunburn.

She moved her head to the side to stare at her ex boyfriend but somehow they're now in good terms because they are hooking up?
She questioned herself.

"Al." she whispered as she stroked the banner tattoo he had on his left pectoral and rested her left leg on his right thigh.

She knew this wasn't right. She was already set, on moving on. Everything was already planned out, she would graduate, take a vacation, move on and find a career.

She had to stop whatever this was. She loved him deeply and will always do, but not like before. She already humiliated him in public for Christ sake. Why was he here coming back in her life. You can't eat what you already vomited out. Gross right? Exactly, that was how she was feeling at the moment. A disgusting piece of shit.

"Mmm." He responded from under his scarf.

"What are we doing What is this?"

She wasn't sure if he was still listening but she carried on anyway.

"You and I both know we're through right? What we had, I will never forget, you practically took all my firsts and I will forever cherish our memories. However, people grow up, people change , I'm no longer the Jade you used to love and you're no longer my Allicer. This has been fun this couple of days but you know our paths don't cross. It was nice hooking up with you one last time, but you know we have to go our own way Al."

Jade thought her ending words reminded her of HSM 2 Gabriella's monologue break up song but quickly brushed off the thought.

She withdrew herself from his embrace and clothed herself.

"I still love you Jade."

Allicer came from behind and wrapped his arms around her.

"And I love you too. "

She spun herself around to face him, loving the way the warm powdery sand felt on her bare feet.

"I have always loved you and will always do." She pinched his cheeks.

"No, you don't get what I mean."He told her, his hand snaking their way around her waist.

"Al."

"Can't we go back?" He whispered, his hot breath tickling her face.

"I'm sorry, we can't." She turned her face away.

"Why?" He questioned aloud.

It's because I have someone else in mind.

Fuck.

Do I like Kai?

She asked herself.

"I don't want to anymore Al. We're through you know that. Can't we just be friends? Can't we be in good terms without being together?"

"Friends don't know how you taste."

"Well too bad for us we're doing the steps in reverse." she huffed, "Why go back to me? There are so many other fish at the sea."

"What do I do with other fishes, when I've already had my biggest catch?"

"Says the guy who cheated on me with a codfish. " she smirked.

"I very much regret that, how many times do I have to tell you."

"You cheated period."

"It was one time, why don't you give me a second chance?"

She laughed for about 10 seconds and quickly donned on her bitch face.

"This", she motioned to herself and him, "is happening all over again. We are repeating everything. We are still fighting over the same old thing, and that keep will keep on happening Al like a fucking wheel. I personally think we're better off and we get along much much better as friends and certainly not as a couple. You're the fire and I'm the freaking gasoline."

"Jade please."

"Did you grow tired of fucking your bitches already? And now you have the audacity to return to me once you've had your fun? I loved you Al so much, but when I rejected your proposal you became different. It just shows how you don't respect me and my decisions, you're a control freak and have the brain of a spoiled little brat when he doesn't get what he wants, you get emotional easily over things and make irrational decisions and lastly you let me down when I needed you the most." she spat out every single word with venom.

She was surprised to find that her cheeks were damp of her tears. She didn't realize she was crying until now.

Allicer was astounded to hear all of these.

He calmed her down and made her sit on a towel.

She hiccuped and rested her head on her knees.

"I understand Jade, I won't press further."

He placed his hand on her back and started massaging little circles to ease her tension.

"We've been together for 9 years and we've had so many problems along the way. We were way to young but I was sure I loved you then. I wasn't the best boyfriend. I mistreated you, cheated on you, lied to you, ignored you and still you stayed. You stayed because you believed in something and you believed in me and I truly admire you for that. Makes me feel like a dick honestly. I've had everything I need before me, and I was too blind to realize that."

He tapped her head and lifted her chin using his fingers so that she could look at him.

"Now I know we don't have a future and I want you to know that I'm sorry. Truly sorry. I'm sorry for being hateful, rude, unintelligent, childish, selfish, passive-aggressive, unfaithful, careless and mean. I'm sorry for not caring when I said I did, not loving you when I said I would, not listening when I should, I'm sorry for being really dumb to know that myself loathing was being spilled over unto you."

He looked at her, her eyes were the ocean, so full of life yet uncertain. They sparkled like storm clouds right before lightning hit.Cloud of grey and blue threatened floods and fury, eyelashes catching the raindrops which were her tears.

"I love you Jade, I know I can't love as deep as you do but please believe me when I say I do. I'm so sorry. It's fine if you don't forgive me. I don't deserve your forgiveness. You were the most magical and spiritual experience of my lifetime and I'll make sure I won't hurt any woman, anyone as much as I hurt you, because nobody deserves that."

The next day Jade walked with him to the only airport the island has. They laughed and talked about the details concerning Gavin's wedding, that he'll pay for her plane ticket and go together as friends.

She bid Allicer goodbye, he gave her a bear hug and she kissed him on the cheek.