Unsaid Thoughts

Reflecting

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Kuhu

Should I send her a message and ask how she's doing? Would that be too out of character? God, why don't you give me some brains when I need it?

Maybe I should message her. I mean we literally left her at a resort where she knows absolutely no one.

But this was her choice na? She chose to not come back.

She was probably just mad and sulking. Hashtag stubborn Mishti for life. I should really ask her how she is. Since Abir bro also said this is my fault..

Maybe somewhere I did instigate her too much last night. I should've first listened to what she was saying and then proceeded to react. But like always I needed to open my mouth before anyone else. Hashtag budboli in the true sense Kuhu. Jasmeet Chachi is right about that.

I pulled my phone from my pant pocket and opened a new message to Mishti.

I was staring at the blank screen for a good 2 minutes before I gathered my guts and typed. "Hey, are you okay?" Send.

Suddenly Abir bro and Kunal came back to the car.

I started before either of them could, "Abir bro, I am truly sorry if whatever I said or did hurt you. I hope  I can make it up to you, I just messaged Mishti and asked if she's okay. She will be fine Abir bro, she's just mad and you'll be able to pacify her, I will talk to her if you want, I will apologize and", I started blabbering as always.

Abir bro put up both his hands and gave me one of his big smiles but I knew it wasn't a real one, "Relax yaar Kuhu. Even I'm sorry for speaking to you like that. My mind is too occupied and yours was too last night. It's okay. I'm gonna go back and get Mishti. You guys go back home and get some rest. I'll take a cab or something. We will talk more once I get her home".

I gave him a smile as well but felt it wasn't enough. I awkwardly and slowly reached forward and wrapped my arms around him in a tight hug and said a faint sorry again.

He put his hand on my head and whispered an "it's okay".

Kunal took the keys from him and we started driving back home.

Suddenly I got a text back from Mishti.

"I am okay. Thanks for checking on me Kuhu. I need to talk to you"

I immediately typed a reply, "I need to talk to you as well. Abir bro is coming back to get you so don't go anywhere. Take care, I'll see you at home".

It felt good to be cordial with her even though it was over text. It takes so much energy to be mad and stay mad at someone, I for one am fed up with constantly being at war with her.

I put my phone away and looked towards an expressionless Kunal

Where am I going wrong with understanding this man? He has too many shades that sometimes I don't know which Kunal I am talking to a given time. If I do anything he doesn't like, he goes into attack mode and says anything and everything he feels like. But then if he's in a good mood, he's the softest little bear and all you want to do is cuddle him forever. 

"Now you're ignoring me as well?", I said staring at him intently to get any sort of reaction.

"I'm not ignoring you, I am just tired. Let's just go home and I'll talk to you then what say?", he answered exhaustedly. So I didn't bother to press him further, I gave him a meek okay and looked out the window for the remaining 20 minutes of the ride. He was tired of this after all. I can tell from his face that all he wanted was to be rid of drama but he and I both knew we were in for a whole plate of free and petty drama when we got home.