Dear Ex Lover,
I promise to stop chasing your memory in my dreams and forget your lovely existence. When people mention your name I'll pretend I never knew such a wonderful taste before. When I said your name it was like I was eating the forbidden fruit in the garden of Eden.
I will grow up to marry a human and I will bear my soul to them and only them and I'll have their daughter and she will have eyes reminding me that I did indeed fall for someone like me. And if she ever decides to love anyone other than herself, I will send bravery down her spine so that she will be prepared for the pain that will come with that love.
She will remind me of all the times that we loved, like when our eyes met for the first time.
And if she ever comes home broken like shattered glass, I will hold her like my father never held me, I will hold her tightly in my arms. I'll tell her that love is more than what she sees on tv. Love is more than we all know. It's the closest thing to magic for us humans. And if she ever feels as if she is alone or unloved I will be everything and anything she'd need me to be.
And then I'll tell her about you. I'll tell her that I memorized your heartbeat and the way you said I love you. How you took my hand and lead the way so I wouldn't get lost. How you'd held me like my father never held me..... You taught me how to hold her in my arms like she was truly loved. You also taught me that apologies are nothing more then just words we use to get out of bad situations . That forgiving wouldn't be easy , but to forgive yourself before you ever think about forgiving the person sitting next to you. I'll tell her to never regret loving in permanent ink, and that scars on her body are life lessons that should be left in the past but brought up again when the similar pain returns again. And if my daughter's ever looses herself and she becomes unfamiliar with herself, I'll pray to the gods, that she will somehow find herself all over again. She'll sew herself together and she'll return brand new. She will find someone who will tell her to stop looking for the light at the end of the tunnel and find God in the darkness.
Dear Ex Lover,
I hope my daughter never knows what goodbye feels like. I hope she never knows what true pain is. I hope she never does to any hopeless soul what you did to me. I hope she never has to go through the pain of having a last conversation with the person she loves. I hope she never finds out what broken feels like.
Dear Ex Lover,
I hope my daughter never knows how it feels to write broken poetry. She will never pick up a pencil and write poetry knowing she has a muse that will turn her work into flames. I will not allow her to become the spitting image of me.
I hope my daughter never has to bear her soul at a poetry showcase with the person who broke her sitting in the audience. Knowing that the hands she'll use to applaud her with, will be the same hands that will never hold her again.
Dear Ex Lover,
I promise you in my next life you won't have a chance to break me down like you have in this one. You won't get any words dedicated to you or a heart longing for your touch. You will get emptiness. The emptiness that my daughter will never have to worry about because I'll fill every empty corner in her life even if she doesn't want me to. She will become a goddess you will never get the chance to praise.
Sincerely, your Ex Lover.
