Our debut love, Taekook FF ✓

12- Hard to hold back.

Taehyung's pov,

That day I feel like I found everything and at the same time afraid to lose it. Love can make people insane, I know it now.

Suga hyung went to his room after making sure that I'm ok. He is such a softy by heart but hides it with the fake tough facade. That's why I like him the most.

I lay down on my bed when Jimin and hope hyung came to our room. They are obviously so high after watching such type of content.😜 Jimin ran to the washroom while hyung came to my side .he looks relaxed to me compared to chim. I seat upright to face him. My amused smile questioning him.

" What? It's not like RM's studio doesn't have a bathroom? " He snapped at me.

I understand now and nodded. He came closer and seat beside me. He put a hand on my shoulder.

" Hay v? Are you alright boy? I know this must be too hard for you but try to be more open up. We are always with you, you know na?"

I nodded with a smile but my smile faded when I see chim at the bathroom door. My expression changes from cool to fuming with anger. Chim knows me very well and still, he did that to me on purpose !! How could he throw that sudden experiment on me?? I will kill him.

Jimin knows that why I suddenly glaring at him. But, that jerk still has guts to smirk at me !!!

" Don't behave like you are too innocent tae!! What I did is to take you out of your shell. Did you still not getting it? Or you are that dumb to even realize it? Don't tell me you don't feel anything at all. So, tell me how are you feeling to be gay for jungkook now?"

I was starstruck by his explanation. how can he know about my feelings and my sexuality when I myself not aware of it? And how on earth he knows about jungkook? Is he listening to my conversation with suga hyung?

" How can you be so sure about my sexual orientation chim?"

He laughing so hard at my question. Hyung also can't hold back. I was dumbfounded by them making fun of me.

" You...you are so cute v, so so cute and.... pure too. " I am sulking at him.

Finally, he stops his laughter and be serious about something. He came near me and hold my cheeks in his palms and pull my face to see. He is staring softly into my eyes.

" How can I don't know that my best friend is struggling with his emotions? How can I not realize that every time when you felt something for jungkook, you blame yourself inwardly with guilt? I have seen you became lost in your thoughts often tae. I can't see you suffering like this. And I am sorry to push you like this, but believe me, it's for your own good. I want you to understand that this is more than friendly feelings. You know me tae. You know how much I adore jungkook, right? and I love you too but these feelings are not the same that you have for jungkook. I can see your heart in your eyes when you unconsciously staring at him. My friend you are turning into gay for him, and only him. because I know you don't like any other male in that way. I want you to accept yourself, don't freak out. I'm always with you no matter what you are, ok? I want to say this to you myself, but I can see that grumpy grandpa explains it better than me. A pleasing surprise!! But at the end, he makes you understand that you are in love. I'm sorry v but I have to do this. I hope you can see now, why I persist you to watch, which I Know you surely dislike."

His care and affection for me make me cry. My eyes tear up to see how much my chim loves me! I'm very lucky to have him as my best friend. He is indeed an angel in my life.

He rubs his thumb on my cheeks to clean my tears. he knows I'm an emotional person. If I start crying once, then it can't be stopped easily.

" And by the way, we are also sorry for listening to your conversation with suga hyung before. Actually, Jimin can't control his worry for you and he decided to come to see if you are really ok or not? But when we see suga hyung with you, we just stay outside to gives you privacy to open up. Sorry, buddy we don't hear it intentionally." Hope hyung ruffled my hair and I nodded with understanding.