Our debut love, Taekook FF ✓

20- confession 💞

Jeon jungkook's pov,

I held taehyung's wrist firmly. He looks surprised but then again started to pull it out of my hold..but he can't escape from me this time.

"So, you acknowledge that I'm being an adult now, can't damage my reputation in public like being attached to you, right?? But, why are you not think about it before?? You should think twice about it before..."

"Before you make me addicted to your constant presence in my life, before you make me open up and teach me how to catch the sky with dreams and hopes, Before you turned me into the mirror of your soul.."

"Why didn't you stop me when I first time cuddle with you?"

"Why didn't you scoffed off me, when I lean on you for your support and your care?"

"Why infect you make me attach to you in the first place, when you think I shouldn't act like this in the future?? Isn't it a hypocrite behavior??"

"And, when I am unable to stay away from you, you decide to push me off!!??"

"What am I to you?? A fucking toy? Which you can use as for your pleasure and throw it out, if you feel suffocated by it??"

Taehyung stunned by my question. His eyes became glistens with so many emotions. I can feel his inner conflicts. He is trying hard to hide it...but...I won't give up this time...

"Am I not important to you? Did you seriously not think about my feelings while you hurting me? When the others came in-betweens of us?? How can you think, that bunch of unknown crowd can make us apart??"

"It's not that danm people's business what we do in our personal life. Where are they, when I struggled to be an idol? Where are they, when I hurted myself duration dance practice on live performance? Where are they, when I was unconsciously fell down behind the stage? Did they rescued me?"

"No, they were not. It's YOU, it's you, hyung, who stand with me all the time. Who holds my hand throughout my hardship. Who can make me feel safe and secure just by cuddling me in your arms. It's you, your words, your smile, your warmth, your laughter which makes my world brighter and shinier."

"And you want me to think about my reputation among that danm peoples, whom I don't even know over you??"

"Tell me why???"

Taehyung's pov,

I can't face him. His words killing me. I can feel his desperation through his eyes, his hand, and his gaze on me. But I need to be strong for him.

I gather my all strength and jerking his hand away from me...

"Then what you want? What do you want from me? Did you even understand, what you implying by these words of yours? You are not that mature enough to understand the depth of this matter kook. We are living in South Korea. It's a highly homophobic country. People can't understand the affection between two guys as a normal thing here. They...they call them sinner, a faggot. Did you understand now? I don't want people to misunderstand our obvious care for each other into something else. You got it!??"

I can see, kookie was surprised by my explanation. I hold his face into my palm and say face to face...

"Look, jungkook. We are idols. We worked hard to get the success and place where we stand right now. There is a lot of opportunities coming our way in the future. You yourself told a while before that how much you suffered and working hard for this popularity and success. Today, people know you. You are the rising star. A bright and sunny future waiting for you...but..."

"But what, hyung?" Kookie asking.

"But if you behave like this in front of others. People can misunderstand your intentions. It's not good for your career either. You can't give the people a weapon which they can use against you. You are so young to even explain to them your innocence. Do you get me now? I was trying to make you more independent. You have to stand on your own feet, kookie. And all I do is for us. Us to stay out of any burning eyes and questions. Because it's so painful when people judging you for the only feelings, you think is pure and natural to you. Believe me, you can't face that humiliation. I will not make it happen. So just do what I say." I hope he can understand it and leave me alone...