Just Breath

chapter 6

I wipe my tears off standing up and getting dressed in some regular close. I walk into the hall. I walk down to Jimin's room feeling bad about how I treated him and his other friends earlier. I mean Jungkook, Jin , and Tae probably think I'm a horrible person. I get to his door seeing it cracked open and I slowly walk in seeing him laying in bed. "J-jimin" i call out and he sits up i come over and take his hands" i'm so sorry i sh-" i stop when i see the blood and bruises on his hands " jimin what happened" i look at him worried waiting for his response " i fought Kia...he explained everything to me and i flipped out..i had one of the nurses open your door an hour ago and saw your tear stained cheeks and lost it.." i sit next to him and hug him cuddling into his chest crying slightly " d-don't hurt yourself over me please" he starts petting my hair calming me " your worth it baby girl shh calm down" he lays down and i lay down on his chest letting him playing with my hair missing his touch. I get up straddling him sitting on his chest. I lean down kissing him briefly and pull away. He grabs my face pulling me back down kissing me more placing his hands on my waist. I pull away after a bit needing air and goes and kisses my neck softly peeking it pulling away looking at me " where did that come from baby?" i just giggle ignoring him and laying back down on his chest " i'm in love with you Lee Jay" i froze. I didn't know what to do or say I was starstruck. I get up off him and stand there for a second then i turn to leave he grabs my wrist " i'm not like him i swear" " i know Jimin i know" i shake him off softly and walk out into my room and lay down not even five seconds later jimin bust threw my door " nope were not doing this im tired of hurting you and getting hurt back i love you ok i know ive been wiht you for a little bit of time and were both sick and i know he hurt you but i fuckung love you babygirl i really do" i just sit there star struck not knowing what to say at the moment i give myself a few seconds to think "You know me the best You know my worst, see me hurt, but you don't judge That, right there, is the scariest feeling Opening and closing up again I've been hurt so I don't trust Now here we are, staring at the ceiling I've said those words before but it was a lie And you deserve to hear them a thousand times If all it is is eight letters Why is it so hard to say? If all it is is eight letters Why am I in my own way? Why do I pull you close And then ask you for space If all it is is eight letters Why is it so hard to say?Isn't it amazing how almost every line on our hands align When your hand's in mine It's like I'm whole again, isn't that a sign I should speak my mind When I close my eyes It's you there in my mind...but i don't know if i can say those words again" Jimin comes over and kisses my temples " i know baby take your time....lets get dinner tonight order in im tired of hospital food" i hum back " ok tonight we can babe"