Just Breath

chapter 3

"H-h-h-h-i"I automatically laugh at the sound of his voice and the way it kinda sounds like a money trying to talk and stuttering. As my giggles subside i talk threw into the phone"hi Jimine"he gasped but it just sounds funky as he tries to speak ö-o-omg a n-n-n-nick-name" i kinda stop for a second thinking of what i said thinking of what I had said. I did really give him the nickname and dang i didn't think we are that far. I roll my eyes and continue to talk. " well I just called to see if your actually doing your vest. I'll talk to you later at 6 for are meds" i go to hand up and hear him speak there. " r-rr-remember i-i-i-m cr-cravin c-c-c-offe y-y-you s-said-you would c-come get s-s-s-some with m-m-m-me later" I look down at my feet having a flashback of the last coffee date i went on. He mentioned it before so I don't know why it suddenly affects me maybe because of the name i called him makes it seem more like a date them just getting coffee.

He called me and asked if I wanted to go to our favorite coffee shop. I had just been given my diagnose and was a mess, I never went out anymore it's been a full 2 weeks since I left the house for anything. " baby come on let's go get a coffee" I reluctantly agree. Me and Kia have been together for about a year * changed her age to 16 * I meet him there and he sat with me but not next to me, which is strange considering he usually does. I look at him a little concerned when he starts to speak " so * he takes my hands in his* im sorry but I can't be in a relationship with you anymore ...it's not that I don't love you but your in a tough situation and need to be strong for yourself, I don't want you to make a wrong decision because of me. Im sorry but i have to let you go so you can get better.'' I look at him started " w-what are you talking about" he gives me a sad face " your mom talked to me...she heard you talking on the phone saying about how your scared to die and leave me behind ...i don't want you to be scared i want you to live the life you have while you have it okay ...so i need you to let me go ...i will always love you but you need someone better and stronger than me. With that he gets up and leaves and I ran home crying mess

" ahahahah" i hear jimin on the other end messing around and answer his question. " i-i dont think thats a good idea...i'll call u at 6." I hung up the phone and walk out of my room heading to my safe spot the small garden we have. Unlucky for me it's the beginning of october and it's too cold for me to go outside. I sit in a chair the big puffy kind and face it towards the window and look out at the mist covered flowers and just stare out. I look out for a while and go back to my room and get paper and pencils and come back sketching out the beautiful red rose i see. I keep drawing until i believe it looks good enough to hang up. I look down at my phone and see the time 6:57 . crap. I start running down the hallway which isn't a good idea being me and get out of breath and stop a little bit away from jimin's door which is 4 down from mine. I pull out my phone and call him. I hear it ring and look down to my room and see jimin come out with old tear stains on his cheeks. He sees me and runs up to me and wraps me in a big hug that makes me squeal. " i-i couldn't find you and you-were late for you medican." I hear his stutter threw his words and think aww cute he cares i shake the thought off and pulled away. " im fine did you get your meds." he nods his head and hugs me again curling into my shirt. I huff and walk to my room with him hanging on to me i just let it be and lay down in bed chugging my meds down with water. Jimin comes over and lays on me his head laying on my tummy and his arms around my waist. I get stiff from shock. He speaks up " please let me stay for a little" i agree and relax " okay jimin" i tentaly place my hand on top of the hat he always wears and go to take it off i jump when i hear a small snore come from him I giggle and proceed and take off his hat and place my hand in his soft blond hair and hear him kinda purr out and i let my nails rub his scalp and fall asleep hearing his light purrs and warmth around my tummy from his head drift off.