Waking up

Love?

Okay so it's been a crazy couple of weeks since I survived. Don't get me wrong this hasn't been the first time that I tried to die, but this one is special because after I woke up I started talking to this girl online. By the way it's my journal you're reading so I'm occasionally going to tell you about things like this. Anyway I had been doing bad again shortly after and she kind of talked me down a bit, I really started to like her after this, and when I say like I mean obsess. In the way that I get really clingy and I start thinking about you all the time, everything you do is amazing and I don't know the words to describe what I felt then, love? Anyway yeah, so I started trying to eat some, I am trying to talk a little bit more, (extreme social anxiety, I go days without talking) I'm weird what can I say. I guess I'll just leave off here for today.