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come back to me

[written from cordelia's pov, just after misty's death by the seven wonders]

i sat down on the cold floorboards once again. i clutched misty's shawl close to my chest and whispered any spell i could remember that held a chance of bringing her back. my heart wrenched with a pain so deep it felt as though a knife was being plunged into my soul and clearing it of its life.

why was i so hurt by her death anyway? of course i was going to be scarred by the loss of one of my girls, especially at my own fault but.. i hadn't felt this way when nan died, nor zoey, nor madison, nor my own mother for crying out loud!

no, no this was different. i had spent every second since i lost misty, searching in the darkness. it had so far been for nothing though, as even a glimpse of her soul was yet to appear. what was i doing wrong? she felt so far way yet so so close.

i stood up, fumbling around to find my cane, and i decided to leave and take a break. my heart fell through to my chest when i opened the door. i saw her. she was actually there. i could only see a bright, white light surrounding her, but it was misty!

she ran to me and i hugged her so tight i was scared i might kill her again. we stood for a while, in. a comforting silence. i only eventually slipped from the embrace to ask her what was happening.

'look, cordelia, i ain't got long left here but i had to see you again'

'what? you have to go? how did you get here?'

'i don't have much time before i have to go to back to hell. oh god dee it's awful down there! i wish i was up here with you guys'

'i do too mist, i've been trying desperately to get you back. i'm so sorry i let this happen to you'

'please don't blame yourself. it's not your fault. that's the last thing i want, you getting all upset'

'i'm sorry... i'm- i'

by this point i was crying, she was too. and then she started to fade. i held her until she was gone and so was my sight. i stopped looking so hard for her after that, yes she was being tortured, but at least i knew her soul was out there somewhere.

i never fully stopped searching though, and i always had hope i would get another moment like that with her.