His Secrets

Chapter 13

Wow the author updated :o

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ Includes self-harm
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Harrys POV

Now that i've showered and gotten dressed, i had the biggest challenge of getting back to Hogwarts, how would i even get back?? The students have no doubt gone back as its already been roughly an hour or two since i was bought here, and i wouldn't be able to catch the train back as i probably missed it already. Then a thought came to me, what if i flooed (not sure if that's spelt right, sorry) to Hogwarts? I could go to the Leaking Cauldron and hopefully they'd have a fireplace and floo powder. With that thought in mind i started gathering everything i needed and left the house before Uncle Vernon or Petunia decided to get upset. I quickly left the house and started walking.. well more like limping to the Leaking Cauldron as i had no other way of transport.

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3rd POV

After a forty minute walk, Harry finally arrived at the Leaking Cauldron, he pushed the relatively heavy door open and walked in. He then walked up to the front bar gaining the attention of customers and workers. "Excuse me, do you have any floo powder and a fireplace?" he asked. The bartender looked at him skeptically before slightly nodding and leading him to a back room with a fireplace and floo powder, he then nodded at Harry before leaving. Harry slowly walked over to the fire place and took a handful of the powder before walking into the dire place and yelling out 'Dumbledores office' clearly.

Harry's Pov
I stumbled out of the fireplace and swallowed bile down that began coming up in my throat. I kneeled on the floor for a few seconds just getting over the slight dizziness and nausea before lifting my head and looking around the office. Deciding i shouldn't stay any longer i made my way over to the door and left the office. Once i got into the halls i realised it was lunch time so as quickly as i could, i went to the Gryffindore dormitories and into my room. Making my work quick i opened my trunk and shuffled everything to the side to get to a book under everything, then lifting it up and grabbing a hidden blade. I went to Moaning Myrtles bathroom and checked that there was no students in there. Deeming it safe and walked in and shut the door behind me, once that door closed i started shaking and soon started sobbing, i was in pain and felt useless, i couldn't protect myself. weak ass. useless. ugly. sl*t. I slid down the wall fat. wh*re. b*tch.

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING STARTS NOW⚠️
I quickly lifted up my sleeve and looked at old scars grimacing in disgust. I bought the blade to my skin and sliced putting enough pressure to cut deep enough but not too deep. I watched as the thick crimson liquid dribbled out of the cut, slowly dripping down my arm and onto the blood. I repeated this another three times before stopping again and looking at the mess i made, or as i liked to call it, art. I slightly smiled before i bought the blade down once again and another time. But as i went to cut again someone grabbed my hand and took it away from the wrist and taking the blade away.
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I quickly looked up and saw.. Draco? Breath caught in my throat, i stopped breathing and started shaking. Before i knew it i was on my hands and knees in a deep bow repeating the words "i'm sorry". I felt guilty but why?

Draco's POV
I quickly embraced Harry as soon as he started apologising and looked up to try and spot Myrtle to thank her, she was the reason i'm here after all.

Flashback
I laughed at something stupid that Blaise said, something about how author-nim never updated and annoyed her readers a lot. I stopped laughing though as i felt a cool presence behind me, i looked behind me to see Myrtle. I was a little shocked as she rarely ever left her bathroom but my question was soon answered. "Harry came into my bathroom a few minutes ago crying, he's hurting himself" she whispered in my ear and flew away. I quickly got up ignoring my friends questions and rushed to the bathroom.
End of flashback

"Hey harry, honey?" I called to get his attention. When he looked up my heart broke a little, he looked so vulnerable. His eyes were red and puffy with tears falling and constant sobs and whimpers were coming out of his mouth. "We need to go to the hospital wing and get Maddam Pomfrey to clean it up" i said in hopes of slight comfort but i got the exact opposite, more sobs left his mouth as he violently shook his head. "no..no please don't make me... i don't want her to see my like this.. please" he begged. "Fine but you're going to have to let me clean it up then. All i got was a slight nod. "Ok i'll be back in a second, don't you even think about hurting yourself anymore ok honey?" he nodded. I then picked the blade back up and quickly left the bathroom, i then sneaked into the hospital wing and took some bandages, cotton pads and rubbing alcohol. After throwing the blade away i rushed back into the bathroom and back in front of Harry, i then lifted his shirt up more so i had more room to work with and poured some rubbing alcohol on a cotton pad. "Ok this is going to sting" i warned before gently dabbing it onto the cut, he only slightly whines in pain before staying silent I the finished it off by bandaging it up. I then embraced him in a comforting hug and we stayed like that for a few minutes.

"Do you want to go back to your dorm?" i quietly asked, Harry shook his head, "what about my dorm room, i have no roommates so we'll be alone" and Harry nodded at that. I then stood up and helped him get up keeping his injury in mind, we then walked over to my dorm thankfully staying out of everyone's way. Once i said the password i slightly looked inside to make sure the common room was empty before bringing him in and leading him to my room. We then layed on my bed and cuddled, Harry even falling asleep probably exhausted from all the crying. i'm going to have to ask him what happened tomorrow
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Soo... Sup?
I know it's been a looooong time since i updated and i apologise. I guess it's been hard to find motivation to write and i don't think i've been feeling myself lately and i actually considered giving this book to someone else but overall i finally found motivation to get this chapter out!

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