Everytime

Chapter Twenty One

"Are you sure you won't come?" He asked. I flashed him a small smile and nodded. It's been a month since he asked me to come with him, and today was the day that he was leaving.
"Please, it's not to late, just pack your necessities and we'll get you new things-" he started
"No Austin, this is your time, it's not about me" I said.
"I will text you and call you every single day" he said.
"Don't worry about me, just focus on going out there and being successful" I smiled.
"I don't want to leave without you" he said, pressing his forehead against mine.
"You have too, you need to go practice for your first show" I said. He sighed.
"You'll be okay, I promise, you'll forget all about me within a week" I said. He chuckled.
"That would never happen" he said.
"Please be safe, text me when you get there" I smiled. He nodded.
"I will" he said. He was looking down at our feet. I lifted his chin with my index finger so he was now looking at me. I kissed his lips gently, but he pulled it in and made it more passionate and intense.
"I'll miss you" I smiled.
"I'll miss you so much more" he said. We said our goodbyes and I watched him leave the building. Then I watched him get in his car and drive away. I watched his car until it completely disappeared. I went back into my house. Eneesa and Eniyah were both staring at me. I gave them a small smile and walked behind our bar. I grabbed 2 bottles and made my way towards the stairs.
"If you need me, I'll be in my room" I mumbled and drug myself upstairs and into bed. I flicked the cap off the first bottle and sat in my bed and stared at the wall. I just lied there thinking about how much time I've spent with Austin, and how we started. How we hated each other, and how we grew so fond of each other. My phone dinged. I picked it up.

Mom:
Hun, why didn't you go with Austin? That was the plan I thought?

I didn't answer her. I didn't want to talk to anyone. All I could think about is how I wouldn't be seeing Austin for at least 6 months.
***
"Avery it's been a week, you need to come out and eat" Eneesa said.
Austin arrived to California, but we've barely talked like I knew would happen. He would send me texts when he wakes up in the morning, and I'd answer immediately, but then he wouldn't text me till late at night. And it'd only say how busy he was that day. So I've been extremely depressed.
"I know it's hard, but you can't just sit in here and starve yourself, you're slowly killing yourself" Eniyah said.
"Come on, come eat, you want to be nice and thick when you get to see Austin again" Eneesa said. My door was locked, so they were talking to me through the door. I looked up at the wall that my bed was pushed up against. Right about now I wouldn't have minded hearing that banging on the wall, I wouldn't mind if he was with someone else, I just wanted to know he was hear. I looked over at my balcony. There was still a bud light beer cap sitting there from months ago when we drank out there. Every little thing reminded me of him. I've been wearing one of his shirts that he left at my house months ago. I've been wearing it for a week.
I slowly slid out of bed and opened my door. Eneesa and Eniyah was still standing there. I walked out and passed them. I walked downstairs to the kitchen. I grabbed my purse and pulled out $50. Eneesa and Eniyah followed me down. I handed Eneesa the money.
"Can you get me one of those extra large bottles of Spirytus Stawski" I said. She nodded and took the money. I've become fond of this liquor. It was 96% alcohol and made it very easy for my to forget about the pain that I was in. I went into the kitchen and made myself some toast. I took it upstairs and got back into my bed. I ate my toast and sat there awaiting my liquor.
***
Unknown Number
Unknown: is this Avery
Me: yes, who's this?
Unknown: this is Scooter Braun, I'm Justin Bieber's manager, I've been told you are Austin's girlfriend in New York right?
Me: uh, yes?
Scooter: on April 29th, we'll be in DC, it's not to far from New York, and I'd be more than happy to send you a backstage/ vip pass? Watch the show from backstage and get to spend some time with Austin? He's been complaining a lot about wanting to see you
Me: yes, oh my god, I would absolutely love that! Thank you so much!
Scooter: awesome, and don't tell him, it's a surprise 🤫

I sent him my address and he told me he sent out the pass and tickets. I looked at the date, since I had lost track awhile ago.
March 2nd. I hadn't seen him in seven months, and by the time the show comes around, it'll be almost 9 months.
The texts between Austin and I had become less frequent. I barely got a text or an answer from him anymore. It hurt, but I understood he was busy.
***
"April 29th" I smiled, as I hit the bottom step. Eneesa and Eniyah looked at me.
"What about it?" Eniyah asked.
"That's the day I will see Austin"