As August and Ambers career begins to grow so does problems in their marriage. How do high school lovers go from being so deep in love to feeling like each other's mistake. Read and see if their relationship survives.
As I sing my heart out on this record all I can think about is August and how fucked up our marriage is. He doesn't even see what he is doing to our family and I don't know what else to do. I feel like August is cheating but I really don't know. I've never felt this way in our relationship because I knew I could always trust August. He never maybe me feel insecure or unwanted but now I don't know. Why is he coming home so late and why do I keep smelling other women perfume and finding makeup stains on his shirt? I get he is a celebrity and my husband is fine but come on man there are boundaries that need to be set. That have been set !
As I think about all of this a tear streams down my face. My brother Micheal stops the recording immediately as I break down in the booth.
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"Yo Amb, everything good" I hear him in my headphones and shake my head no. He immediately rushes in and takes me out the booth and sits me on the couch. He looks at me with a confused look, but concerned. "What's going on Amb, talk to me. How you go from straight killing that verse to busting out crying." "It's just been so much stuff going on at home and in my marriage, I'm just tired. I pray but it just seems like God ain't hearing me. I'm tired of the lonely night and being alone all the time with the kids." "Amber you know August is out doing what he got to do for your family" "I know but mike, i think he's cheating" mike looked stunned I even said that. Micheal has known August and me since we first got together. He was the only one who really supported us being together and knows how much we love each other. "Amber come on now that ridiculous, he would never be with any other person but you" "Please he has been with other women before he can do it again." "What are you talking about, August has only had eyes for you." "Not from what I heard. Remember when we broke up for like six months before we moved to Atlanta." "Yeah" "August was seeing somebody name Jazmine, I've never seen her but I know he was sleeping with her because one of August home boys told me"
Yeah, I know about Jazmine and I know why August stop being with her. She got back with her ex-boyfriend and completely cut August off. I don't understand people who just ghost people out of the blue. She could have just told him she wasn't interested anymore and wanted to work things out with her ex but she decided to ghost him. August found them kissing one night and never talked to the girl again. I was mad at first when I found out but I know August and he probably thought we were done. I mean we weren't talking and when we were it was either about Damar or arguing. So he tried to move on without me, so I get it but damn she did him dirty and I felt worse for him than me. August will always be my friend first before anything and I care about him. That's kinda what keeps me holding on to our marriage. He's my best friend and I don't know what I would do if he wasn't in my life.
"What does this have to do with anything, that was years ago?" "I'm just saying if he has done it once when we weren't on the best terms he can do it again" "That not true and you know it, y'all were broken up he was trying to get over you. Now granted that doesn't mean to stick your dick in someone else, but, The pain never goes away. It just gets worse. But you know August would never cheat on you no matter how bad it gets." "Man whatever, tell that to all his perfume and make-up stained clothes I clean on a daily or explain the constant late night phone calls and the list goes on. How am I supposed to compete with those skinny model chicks he is always around? I had three kids and I didn't really bounce back from the twins. He probably is tired of my fat ass." "What amber! Stop you know damn well that's not true and you know August would lose it if he heard you talk like that about yourself come on man! Your beautiful and August knows that, he probably just lost his way and got caught up!"
