Back in Toledo

Chapter Fifteen

It was later in the night and I was still trying to fight off my thoughts. I spent the evening laying in bed watching Sons of Anarchy. My phone has been by me all evening and has been blowing up. Colson added Chloe and I into a group chat with all the guys, so they've been talking in it nonstop. I read all the messages but didn't bother replying to any of them. Chloe texted me separately after some of the guys asked why I wasn't talking. 

Texts between Baylor and Chloe 

Chloe

Hey B, are you okay from earlier? 

Baylor

I'm fine. My anxiety was getting to me. 

Chloe

Alexis really had no right to say anything to you. I said something to her myself after you left. 

Baylor

She didn't tell me anything I haven't already thought of. I already know there is a chance of him dropping me again or hooking up with slutty groupies.   

Chloe 

That's not going to happen Baylor. He realized what he did and he worked so hard to fix his past mistakes. He loves you so much B. Don't let what your mom and Alexis said to you." 

We talked for a little longer before she went to bed. The group chat finally calmed down and my phone wasn't blowing up as much. Alexis was texting us in the our group chat but neither Chloe or I were replying back to her. After a couple attempts in the group chat, I started getting separate messages from her. I was sticking with what I told her earlier at Chloe's, I'll talk to her Monday at school. I was still upset with her and she knew that, I think that is why she kept texting me. She eventually got the hint and stopped.

I was bored sitting in my room watching TV, so I took my small blanket and went out my window to sit on the roof and just enjoy the nice night looking at the stars. As I was sitting there looking at the sky, I heard the ladder that was on the side of the house move. I froze for a second thinking there was probably an animal that kept hitting it. I was wrong when JP appeared and made his way over to where I was sitting.

"I forgot the ladder was there, good times sneaking up here." 

"What are you doing here?"

"Chloe texted me saying you were upset and then I saw you were up here so I decided to come see you." 

"I'm fine, but thank you." 

"I can tell that you're not babygirl. Wanna talk about it?"

"Stuff was said from both my mom and Alexis today. It made me upset." 

"What was said?"

"Let's just say that now I have the thought that you're just gonna drop me again when you leave and/or you're gonna cheat on me with some slutty groupies while I'm away and you're on tour this fall."

"Baylor Rose, none of that is going to happen. I can promise you that right now. You trust me, don't you?"

"Of course I do. I've just seen you leave before so it's hard to get that thought out of my head when I have people telling me it's probably going to happen again. So you can't really blame me for having these thoughts."

"I don't blame you B. I fucked up in the past and have been trying hard as hell to fix it all."

"I know." 

I turned my attention back up towards the stars but I could feel him staring at me the entire time. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder as I reached up and intertwined our hands and wrapped my other arm around him. We sat there for a while until he spoke up again. 

"I'm not fucking anything up with you now that I have you back in my life. Colson told me how he was talking to you last night, and he was right. You have me wrapped around your finger. I'm so fucking in love with you." 

"You are?"

"Yeah. Unless you're not in love with me and then I take it back." 

"Shut up."

I leaned up and kissed him while we were both smiling like idiots. He had a gift for taking serious moments and turning them into something less serious. You could be having a heart to heart conversation with him and he'd say something completely stupid and off topic to make light of whatever the situation was. 

"Don't take it back. I'm in love with you too JP." 

"I got the hint when you told me to shut up and then kissed me." 

I couldn't help but roll my eyes and laugh. All those thoughts I had were no longer lingering in my head. Even though I was feeling better, I still decided not to reply back to the multiple text messages from the group chat. I just wanted to stay in the moment for a while. 

"You know, I was being kinda serious earlier when I said I could take you to LA with me." 

"My mom is already mad that I don't want to go down to my grandparents after graduation because I wanted to want to spend time with you until you leave. I highly doubt she would be okay with me going to LA." 

"So then go down to your grandparents after graduation and then just fly out to LA from there. You can stay until move in day or whenever you want to go back." 

"I don't know JP. When you left earlier I told them I would stay for the rest of the summer."

"Trust me, Colson and Chloe are most likely gonna be talking if they're not already. Which means he'll want her to come out there. Problem solved."

"You're forgetting one person." 

"Yeah I don't think I really like that Alexis. Putting all those thoughts in your head about how I'm leaving you again." 

"I'm mad at her right now but she's still one of my best friends." 

"Yeah I know. You know what I like most about you?"

"Oh geez. What?"

"This is good, trust me. You always take other peoples feelings into consideration. Mad at them or not. Whether you really know them or not." 

"Not always. Remember when you came back? I was kind of a bitch."

"Yeah well I deserved it. Look at us now though."

"You're right. I'm going to bed now, I'm so tired." 

"Yeah so am I. Goodnight. I love you."

"Goodnight. I love you too."

He kissed me a few times before he made his way down the ladder and back over home. I watched before I went back into my room. When I said earlier how he has me feeling some kinda way that excites me and scares me, I guess that's just the feeling of being completely in love with someone. I always knew that I loved him, but I never knew just how much I loved him until tonight.