how do you love me

"eat"

brandon
i check my phone and see billie finally texted back after weeks. i open her text and look at what she texted me.
que
billie what? no your amazing and your looks aren't what i fell for. i fell hard for you your amazing personality and your heart. please don't think that bad about me

brandon sighs and sends her the text and soon or later he sees she left him on read

billie
i leave him on read beacuse to be honest i'm just tired of everything i don't wanna even talk to him i don't know why i texted him that so stupid.

*2 months later* (i was gonna do 2 weeks but i don't want this book to be long)
these weeks have been so stressful on me. i've stopped eating my three meals and only eat like some fruit a little, and some water .exercise is my only think i like doing... i think that's pretty healthy and i don't think that's bad . i've probably lost atlest 20 pounds. i need to loose wayyyy more.

i walk to the living room and hear a knock so i get up and sigh. once i open the door i look up and see somone i didn't wanna see.

"what do you want" i tell him

"i came to talk" he grabs my wrist

"you've been cuttin?" "really billie?" "your wrist is so small what's wrong?"

"now you wanna look after me?" i question "nothing's wrong with me que you can go now" i almost close the door but he holds back

"billie look i'm sorry for breaking up with
you but we can wait till your 18!" he says

i blink at him and he lets him self in. "brandon you can go please "
"no i'm not leaving until you come with me to eat to your favorite restaurant " he says . "if that's what's it gonna take for you to leave me alone" i say and he smiles

hour later
brandon
we sit down and the girl takes our order for our drink "i'll take a sprite " i say "and for you?" the girl ask billie . "oh no thank you" she tells her "billie...let me get her a water please" i say and she looks down "ok i'll be back" the girl says and i nod

"so what you been up to ?" i tell billie and she looks up "nothing much " she tells me "yeah mhm" "how'd you get so thin tho?" i ask but i feel like i just messed up "not saying you weren't but you had a nicer body before and now your just bone and skin" i tell her

"just been working out" she says and sighs . soon or later the girl comes back and ask for our order "i'll get a pasta" i tell the girl and she nods "and for you?" she asks billie

"oh um i'm not hu-" i cut her off "a bean burrito please for her" "with some rice " (she isn't vegan in this story) she nods and takes our menus

we just talked about life and then the food came and i say thank you and billie looks at her food like it's bad . "you gonna eat " i tell her and she looks at me "ima use the battroom real fast" she gets up and walks to the battroom

billie
i cant do that...i can't eat that ima gain so much weight....fuckkk i bang my head on the door stall . 10 minutes passed of me just having bad anxiety. i sit in my spot and brandon sighs "cmon you have to eat it atlest take small bites" he tells me. he dosent know how hard it is for me,

i feel my face get red and i look at the burrito "can i get a box please i swear i'll eat it later.." i say . he sighs "fine but your gonna eat it at my house later and i wanna see you eat it" he says "ok" i nod

*at brandon's house*
brandon shuts the door and billie kisses him against the wall. she takes his shirt off and sucks his neck. brandon picks her up and takes her to his room and throws her in his bed

"i missed you" she moans

"me too" he bites his lips and takes his pants off and billie sits up and takes his underwear off and takes his whole dick in her mouth

"good girl" he growls and grabs her hair

she sucks and looks up at him and he starts to fuck her throat. she gags and moans . she takes his dick out his mouth and starts stroking it ,soon he came and she licked it off his dick.

he layed her down and she puts her arms up and he takes her hoodie off and then gose right at her neck.

"m" she moans . brandon sits her up and takes her bra off. then gose right to her boobs and sucks and grabs them

"oh" she moans as she feels brandon's arms and he comes back up to her and kisses her with tongue. then he kisses her stomach and licks her stomach as well . he stopped for a sec and looked at her

"billie your so -...thin" he tells her "are you ok?"

she sits up and sighs "you know what fuck you brandon" she gets up and grabs her hoodie and puts it on leaving her bra there . she walks out of his room and he puts his boxers on

"bil wait" brandon stops her and she turns around

"no que fuck you stop worrying so much about me like you worry so much . dude your getting on my nerves telling me how "if your ok?" and how i need to eat that's all hard for me but no you wouldn't get it because i've been left by the guys i love all my life and your one of them and now you wanna look out for me beacuse of how "skinny" i am. FUCK OFF BRANDON" she yells and grabs her keys while crying

"billie CMON" he runs after her and grabs her wrist but she lets go

"LEAVE ME ALONE " she gets in her car and drives off.