They told me to pick my poison, but what if it was another soul's meat
It's been a while since I've felt this feeling, where my fears and my roles meet
I've been living as a sheep in wolves clothing, as a carp among sharks
I've come to see my moxie's mouldy and my heart's lost its spark
A chasm's forming where my heart was
My joy's dispersing like some chalk dust
Self-deceptions where it's at, and self-destruction's looking backwards.
Whilst I reflect upon the things I've done
I've come to see I've failed to shun the ways of scum
I've become numb and glum, with a blistered tongue
Because I've sipped on seething sacrilege in its bona fide form
And so the scorn that I held upon a stranger's shadow
has returned to tear my tendons, break my bones, and slurp the marrow
But there's no morrow when you follow those that borrow from Apollo,
Pagan's harrow, whilst they swallow all the sins that dwell in horror.
I have longed to be the stamen, free my pollen, pollinating
But the thing is fornicating is the same thing as betraying bonds that bind disciples' saving
Plus, mindless penetrating just cannot be elevating, even if it's satiating
For Lust's a son of Satan.
Expressing what I feel inside, can counteract the cyanide
That's dripping from the faceless husks and puppets strings with toxic dust
Each night as I drift to sleep, I realize I've dug too deep
A peerless pit above. Beneath?
The source of all my needless grief
Where all shall weep and gnash their teeth, in utter pain and disbelief.
Lest the damsel dons a diaper, don't think you can change her
Swine forever swig their sick so stay clear of their manger
Letting vicious vipers in your life's inviting venom,
And even then, a snake can only bite you if you let 'em
Still, their fangs are fearsome things, some piercing pass your denim;
Then coursing through your system and then shackling you like a felon.
Still, every day I'm dodging demons, which dash toward me madly
But trudging forward evermore, I face them fiercely, gladly.
Velton Gooden Jr, (2018)
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Divulgence: A Poetry Collection
PoesíaThis is a sort of collection of poems I've written over the span of a few years which cover a range of subject matters which tackle issues of personal and societal significance.