i watched something just last night
it inspired me to keep on living
to keep going
even knowing
that the justice of a cruel youth has not yet been served
and likely never will
for as long as there are people in my life
there will also be loneliness
and contempt
and bitterness
and longing
but there used to be love and beauty and innocence
and i miss it
but their grace and comfort reminds me they are still my friends and they always have been
though i've never felt their silky skin or played in the waves with them
i know that should i die i'll have died for them
so we can play together
forever
and be happy
again
