Errant Thoughts and Stuff I Write

Poem I

I have died today
Somehow
I'm not the person I was
Ten hours ago

I don't know what happened
I don't know what went wrong
My heart is slipping
But my head stayed strong

I'm offensive and afraid
Self-abusive and insane
I can't tell what's happening
And I'm falling apart

I run from my problems
Make it seem like I've forgot
'Cause I am pretending
To be someone that I'm not

I'm lying to you
I've been lying from the start
A sinner damned to hell
'Cause I've seen your barest parts

You're more afraid than I am
You're so afraid to die
I've been barking up the wrong tree
And I'm not afraid to lie

I am broken, naive
Simple and strange
I've never fit in
Someone save me from this cage

Help me to escape
I'm dying
These bonds, they'll never break
I'm lying

I was never any different
I was wrong from the start
I never quite fit in, never quite made it
I never showed my heart

I was so scared to let you see
The tiny pieces that remain of me
I don't exist, I am a memory
I don't fit in now, I am free.

Let me escape
Let me run away
I'm dying inside
I'm a promise
You'll never
Keep

Let me go.