Russian Roulette {Book 2}

All falls down

Part I: Save me
I swallowed two of the abortion pills.
No no no no !! I cannot do this !
I put my hand inside my mouth and gag. I vomit out everything I ate. My throat was burning from pain. Tears stained my face. But at least I could save it.

I was so so close to losing my child. I reminisce while waiting at the queue for my bill payment.
That was 2 months ago.
My turn comes and I pay for the groceries and walk out of the store.
"So you wanna take it the hard way, huh?"
My blood boils at his words.
"Just fuck off yoongi !"
"Now I know why he likes you. You are quite the fiesty one."

I ignore him completely and speed walk towards my car. Not knowing what's in store for me.

"Ah ! Fuck !" I scream out, as pain shoots up my body. I lay helplessly on the ground as I feel blood trickling down my legs. That bastard ! I take out my cell and call hyung, "Su-per market.."

I hear him speaking but my consciousness slips out slowly.

I wake up staring at a bland white ceiling. It smells of lemon and phenol in here. An IV tube was connected to my arm.

"Sissy ! You are awake." Hyung jolts up from the chair and heaves his way towards me.

"I was so so afraid y/n. When I got there, you were lying limp. I. You. You looked so pale." He starts to sob. I hold his hand.

"Shh. I am fine. Don't cry hyung, its because of you I am safe. So Mr. Savior please do not cry." I tried to cheer him up. And it worked.

He didn't leave my side. Ever. But what was coming in future... I was not ready for it.

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Part II : Awake.

"Miss y/n, there is nothing we can do. We are sorry for your loss."

The doctor said that I would be discharged altogether after my first ultrasound. So here I am on a hospital bed with a freezing gel on my stomach which is supposed to help in ultrasound.

"Miss y/n you had twins." The doctor said while looking at the screen and then at me.
"Woah ! Hyung you hear that !!! Twins oh my-- wait. What do you mean by 'had'?" I suddenly stopped in between my utter happiness.

She just nodded. "Due to your accident two days ago, one of your child didn't survive and basically the other may have complexities. There is nothing we can do. We are sorry for your loss."

My hands were shivering. I wanted to scream and cry. But only an inaudible squeak came out my throat. I was grieved beyond limits.
Hyung hugged me, "Seoul is not safe for you. We are going to Busan."

I was in no way, in a condition to argue. I know I am running from my problems. But my child is my first priority.

It hurts. So so much. What do I do ?!

One thing is sure,
"If fate is up for a game,
I am too..."