Muffin|| K.T.H (COMPLETED)

❌Chapter 21❌

a/n: if you can't handle mentions of suicide then i would skip this chapter. you're not missing much, besides some of y/n's past and her and taehyung bonding

"What?" You whisper. "That's not true! He.. He would've told me if he was!"

"Y/N, you're in denial," Taehyung sighs. "He wouldn't have told you, and we both know that."

"Breathe, Y/N," you whisper to yourself. "Well, why did we get married?"

"To become allies." Taehyung rubs your back, trying to calm you.
You stay silent. Why didn't he tell you? It's not like he would've. He couldn't even trust you to get the mail.
Stop acting like it's a big deal, Y/N. You're a queen and it doesn't matter who your father is.

"But he mentioned a brother? I didn't know you had a brother," Taehyung smiles, trying to talk about a different subject. But he didn't know.

"My brother killed himself." You say it so firmly, that you frighten even yourself. When it happened, you forced yourself to shut down all your emotions when it came to him.

"What was his name?" Taehyung asks after some time.

"Baek-Hyun. Lee Baek-Hyun." You try to distract yourself by gazing at the stars. You won't cry. You can't cry. It was a promise you will keep.
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"Y/N," your older brother whispers to you. He had a distraught look on his face, and you could tell that something was wrong. "Y/N, if something were to ever happen to me, don't cry. Promise me that you won't cry."

"Baek-Hyun?" You whine. "What are you talking about?" He shoots you a look and you nod. "I promise I won't cry."
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"911, what is your emergency?"

"Help!" You cry into the phone. You were crying. It was the first time you had broken a promise. But this would be the only time. You won't cry about it again. Right?

"How old are you, dear?" The man on the phone asks.

"12!" Tears run down your cheeks. "Please help! H-he's in the bathroom!" You let out a wail.

"Who is?" The operator asks. "What's your name?"

"My brother!" You scream. "L-Lee Y/N. Please come. There's.. There's.."

"There's what, Y/N? I have sent someone to come help you, but I need you to explain what's going on," the operator questions.

"There's blood everywhere!" You spit out, sniffing your nose as boogers run down your face, with your tears.

"What happened, Y/N?"

"I-I think.." you stop talking and cry, realizing what happened.

"You think what?" The operator asks in a calm tone. "I have sent people to come, so if you hear sirens, then please don't worry."

"I think he.." For some reason, you can't manage to say it. The words were at the tip of your tongue, but you couldn't say it. "I think he.. he.. he killed himself!"
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It was you that found the body.
a/n: i'm going to go into detail what happened, so if you're sensitive to this stuff then please skip. i don't want you to feel uncomfortable in any way. read at your own risks, loves <3

His wrists were slit, and he was lying in the bath, the water turning red. The knife he used was lying on the floor, next to the bath. It was a kitchen knife. You were only 12. You had to be the one to find your brother, lying dead in a pool of his own blood. He had written a note, explaining why he did it. You couldn't bring yourself to read it until the cops showed up. The scene haunted you for life. When you closed your eyes, you saw his lifeless body, floating in the bath, and the scars crawling up his arms.
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"Y/N?" Taehyung brings you back to the present. He wipes your face, and that's when you realize you were crying. He rests his hand on your cheek, and you lean at his touch.

"Sorry," you mumble, trying to stop crying. "I just saw it. I relived it. Sorry I ruined our little moment."

"Don't apologize, Y/N," he gives you a sad smile. "It makes me feel like the bad guy. If you want to talk about it, you can."
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And that's how you ended up lying in the grass with Kim Taehyung's arm wrapped around you, talking about your brother's suicide and other random things.

"Thanks," you sigh.

"Thanks for letting me know about you more," Taehyung replies, turning on his side to face you.
It looks like he's glowing. The moon bounced off of him, creating the illusion that he was glowing.
"When did we get married?" You ask Taehyung.

"I believe it was some time five months ago," Taehyung replies. 5 months. It felt like it was only two weeks.

"Woah," your eyes widen. He nods and smiles.

"Are you tired?" Taehyung asks you after a couple minutes pass. You shake your head. He smiles. "Good."
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You two stay up and talk about all your issues and random things. Taehyung seemed so different that night. He's someone you could talk to without feeling judged.
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"Y/N!" Taehyung whisper shouts. "It's already 5:00! I can't believe we actually stayed up the whole night!"

"I'm still not tired," you laugh.

"Same," Taehyung sighs out, his voice husky. And, you'll admit, hot.

"What do you wanna do now?" You ask slowly. Taehyung grins and leans in, his face close to your face. You feel your cheeks heat up.

"I think you know what I want to do now," he growls, smirking.

"Oh, do I?" You furrow your eyebrows, acting like you don't know something. "Whatever you're thinking, I have a better idea. Let's go get some food, yeah?" Taehyung rolls his eyes, but nods.

"I guess we can come back to that later."
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