Oh Hi funny seeing you here if you want depression and sadness and whatever feel free to read what I'm feeling since no once actually gives a damn and I'm desperate for someone to finally listen to me
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btw the word pathetic pretty much...
UwU... have fun reading whatever happened to me I still don't know what all that was but meh-
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(My dad gave me my phone for like a hour so sry for my friends that read this and have hopes of texting me qwq sry guys)
Do you know what it feels like to see your crush looking at your friend with his lovestruck eyes talking to her with a small blush and being all nervous about her while completely ignoring your presence?
Well...I do
It's like someone is ripping your heart out, just to let you watch your own heart being destroyed and ripped apart right in front of you. And you can see how often you flicked it together, the tape still trying to hold your heart together but failing at its job.
You don't even realize what is happening and just look at the scene with curiosity and wonder but while it unfolds right in front of you, you start to understand. Your eyes start to grow wider, your mouth opens in shock and you look at what is happening in front of you with disbelieve but most importantly...with fear.
Your body starts shaking, breath quickens and you just want to scream, to cry, to let it all out but you can't. It's like your stuck inside your head your eyes can't move away from that scene. Your eyes can't move away and anxiously watch your heart being broken to almost no repair.
Your feet are stuck to the ground, your whole body is shaking and before the tears start to pour out of your hopeless and broken eyes you regain consciousness and calmy but quickly walk to a bathroom to calm yourself.
Once in the bathroom you quickly hide somewhere and that's when you finally can let it out. You cry the remaining pieces of your heart out with no sign of stopping and at the same time you try to be as quiet as possible. Hands gripping your head, trying to rip your hair out and face cringing away to hide in your knees. It's like your tears transform into a huge Tsunami that suffocates you with these emotions. You see it in front of you and run as fast as you can but it already got you and suffocates you. You accidentally breathe in and water starts to fill your lungs, making it seem like your insides are burning. It's too much you feel too many negative emotions, your breathing gets heavier you start to hyperventilate its like air being sucked right out of you and you can't get it back. Thoughts running through your head, so fast that you can barely keep up with it, these thoughts and emotions make your head heavier and you just need to let everything out.
And that is what you do, you vomit everything out and the strange feeling in your belly went away for a few minutes. Still, you are breathing hard trying to calm yourself but before you know it everything went dark and you lost consciousness.
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I wake up in my bed at 02:46 completely covered in sweat, my heart hammering against my ribcage trying to break out of my body while I'm trying to calm myself and breathe slower.
After all, it was just a Nightmare or maybe...a bad memory?
