Meeting You (Jenlisa) - Complete

CHAPTER 1

JK POV

Happiness is not a stand-alone feeling for me. It is a comparative emotion for me. Without sadness, happiness has no meaning. It's just like how I lost my mother at the age of 10. Ironically, the fear of emotional sadness often restricts my ability to experience the high heights of happiness. I did not cry when my mom died. I did not cry when my Aunt took me with her just to make sure my Mother's insurance money will fall to her. I did not cry when Kai beat me up when he is drunk.

The only time I cried is when I started having the habit of writing a letter and put it in the mailbox of this one big house. Jisoo told me that the house might be haunted because she can see there is only one black car coming in and out of the house. Nobody can be seen there and the house is super big but super quiet hence I took the opportunity to write about myself and put the letter there.

Every month, there will be short letter sent to the mailbox. I cannot see if someone took the letter or not as the mailbox is super deep and super big hence it became my habit to write my feelings every single month and sent it there. No one replied though, just like I expected.

When I was writing that particular time, I learned that Sad is an important emotion. Sadness is one of the four main human emotions. It is valid and useful; it alerts us to how we need to treat ourselves and also as to how we want to be treated by others. No one is with me other than Jisoo. I think I can die if Jisoo is not there to protect me. She got beaten by Kai this one day when she blocked Kai from kissing me. I was afraid, sad and angry. He is my cousin, why in the world he wants to have relationship with me. We can't by all means. That is the first time Jisoo saw me cry for her and she wipe it clean. She remind me not to cry as both of us will one day afford our own place to stay and we will run away from her mom which is my auntie.

Every day, since day 1 I've been living with my auntie, she never fails to ask me to do every single chores in the house. I even need to clean Kai's underwear which is really bad and smelly. I never complain. I know she only took care of me because she wants my Mother's insurance money. My mom did insurance that before she died; she will have some amount of money to be given to me up until I reached 20 years old where all her money will be given to me. My auntie never really gives me any money and use it for her own and also Kai's alcohol.

I am 19 now, me and Jisoo really ran away from her. That is the last time I wrote any letter to that house. We got a job at this one Korean Chicken Fast Food Restaurant owned by Mrs Park. Apparently she also got a small bedroom for two on top of her rooftop. Both of quickly agree to rent the rooftop room and stay there since. Mrs Park got a daughter by the name of Chaeyoung and we called her Chaeng. She is so gullible and really loves to eat. We all have been best friend since day 1 we started working there. But secretly I know both of them liked each other. Jisoo is really soft when it came to Chaeng. And how Chaeng cheeks turned red every Jisoo compliments her shows how both of them are oblivious to each other feelings.

I sometime wonder if anybody really read my letter. But there is no one replying it. Who am I kidding? Of course no one really read that letter. If there is, I guess she or he will be finding me already. I keep on writing that I would love to fall in love to the one who reads my letter. I can't imagine if someone reading it will be an old person. I will run for my life. I always imagine having one good fairy tale wedding with the person I love. I know it is impossible but a girl can dream right?

Sometimes, I felt the feeling of longing. A need or desire for someone or maybe something to just be with me. Sometimes, I felt the days will be long when I got that feeling. Somehow, deep down in my heart, I felt someone that is just like me, longing for each other. Someone I can depend on. All my life, I've been depending on myself or sometimes Jisoo is helping. I want to feel safe when that person look at me. I want to feel needed by my partner where she or he appreciates me deeply.

"What are you dreaming of Jendeukie?! Come we are late already" Jisoo told me off breaking my dream from the letters I've been sending.

"Coming Chichu... Wait for me" I catch up to her and go down from the rooftop. Our house is currently far from the abandon house and also my auntie's house. I don't think they will find us but we are still cautious when we go back and most of the time, we just cook in our small apartment.

"Hi Chichu, gooooooooood morning! You look pretty as usual" Chaeng shouted from her door as our shift usually will be the same even our off days. I can see how Jisoo blushed for a while but then reply to Chaeng making her blushed too. These two lovebirds!

"You look mesmerizing Chaeng! Do you want to go to the restaurant with me my princess?!" Jisoo smile brightly at her and I saw how Chaeng's eyes sparkle. She nods really fast and left me alone. I am always a loner! I think I am curse to be alone forever.

"Hey guys, wait for me!! Why are you guys leaving me alone" I pouted and both of them laugh and wait for me to catch them up. On our way to the restaurant, I kept on thinking will someone special one day meet me. How is she or he going to approach me? I went on with my dream while walking to the restaurant. How I wish the person will be there soon...