Don't show. Head hurt.
Make your crush buy the sweater.
You're probably thinking of her.
You don't love me.
You never will.
I'm just being used.
Is it love or lust?
Should I even continue this.
I can't even tell anyone, at least I don't want too...
You'll only be pissed if I tell you ...
I can never win in this scenario...
I never win with you, I hate it so much, it's so frustrating but I can't help but continue
I'm entertainment...
I don't know what you'll do if she goes over...why do I even care? Is that bad..?
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Why did I do that. I'm so fucking stupid, I'm burning up from cracking and it fucking hurts. Fuck. Im so hot and itchy, I hate this and myself for putting me through it. I shouldn't have said anything, fuck.....
Personal.
I'm worried for my fucking friends sorry!
You took me out of your life so did I!
You kicked me from you're priorities so why is it so bad that I moved you down by one?
I always do everything wrong don't I.
I can't open my mouth, it'll ruin everything.
You take a lot of things out on me.
Self sabotage. Stupid. Stupid.
I need help, but I won't get it.
Everyone else is so distant, so should you. I need my own raft out in this ocean, away from anyone else's.
I need a quiet place, I need a place to break stuff.
I need to be isolated.
When ever you don't say "I love you" back, it really, really hurts...
If the world was ending and you only had time to see one last person/group of people (such as family) who would it be?
I never knew how powerful "I love you" could be until the meaning of it changed with you even though it sounded the same.
A familiar tone to a hollow facade. It's a hard and heartbreaking realization to make, but one that I'm glad I had.
It hurts to help you, how everything you say relates to me but if I did the same it wouldn't work. Just like her and brad, your fixed on her and I'm just an option like you are to her.
I don't know what I'm going to do when you tell me "she said yes" one day, weather it be on the phone or in person, all I know is my heart is going to blaze and shrivel. If it's on the phone I may hang up or just be quiet as usual, not showing that I'm bothered since you can't see my face as I've done plenty of times already. You always say to speak my mind but whenever I do, I just seem to bring us further apart. I don't like saying goodbye in any way with you because I don't want it to be the last but I'm really afraid when the day comes that I didn't get the chance to say a final goodbye.
"Lonely, but not when you hold me."
If I ever cry from memories of you, at least they'll be joyful ones.
(Suppressed and put away for reasons. Hope I forget it.)
Can't even get an "I love you"
If you won't let me do the stuff I'm good at then what good am I to you.
And don't you dare say to stop having a petty party. It's called having emotions, just because I haven't let them out on you before recently doesn't mean that I don't have them.
I see how it is though, so much for "no matter what, I still want to be friends forever."
I'm letting everything out so don't blame me for when it hurts you.
This isn't for all to see but it's for you.
In hopes of leaving everything even if it includes you.
The way you hurt me, still doesn't equal the same of- I'm sorry too.
The pictures on the wall stare back at me when I think of you. Stitch is in on it too...
The blue little fussball and pieces of paper is all I have left of you. Crazy how it went down to that from all we've been through.
Only if you could see my Spotify, you'd be angry, worried, or sad.
