for the first time in two months, i’ve finally managed to convince myself to go out of the house and be a social butterfly again, even though i don’t do it most of the time but i felt better and it made me feel like a changed person.
much later
me and jisoo decided to go to a friend’s party, since a friend of her is celebrating her birthday, although i was only invited since jisoo forced me to. the both of them were obviously close but i don’t even know the host that well, i only know the basics like her name, her school. i never cared for someone that much like how i cared for someone i knew and was attached to before.
glasses clinking into eachother, people taking in distance, loud party music blasting through the speakers. that’s all i heard last night nothing more interesting that i even expected.
i decided to leave the party for awhile and managed to come across the massive crowd inside the venue.
fresh air was all i needed, and more sleep probably because of the sleepless nights. i was dizzy and my vision was blurry at that time. dancing couples and the reek of alcohol was all I could sense but suddenly something caught my attention.
it was lisa.
I saw her, clinking her glass of wine with someone else. she was hanging out with someone, and i knew that someone was obviously not me. my heart ached so much, i knew that my love for her was real and i knew that all this time we would meet again so i made a move before the night even ended.
I ran towards the girl and she was facing back at me but before she even exited the room, I grabbed her arm.
my heart dropped.
It was someone else. It wasn’t the blonde girl I used to know.
after seeing her appearance clearly in distance, I apologized right away. I didn’t know what I was thinking that time but all I wanted to know was if she was fine during that time.
I badly wanted to see her face but I guess fate didn’t made us end up with eachother.
I guess i haven't truly told her how I felt each time she would call me hers. I wish I had a chance to go back to the past to tell her that my love for her is ineffable.
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1:44am third person pov.
tw// alcohol
a huge crowd of people gathering at the center of the room. couples dancing whilst holding eachother, and their other hand was occupied by a can of alcohol.
at the side at the bar, the blonde-ish haired girl was sitting near the counter drinking a few more drinks although she seems to be close to being drunk already. the girl’s body was completely tired after all the dancing, she was just enjoying the whole night at the bar after the small party. not letting her friend, jisoo know that she was already at the bar drinking by herself to ease her mind after everything that she has gone through these months.
finally, after some last shots she decides to head out of the bar, by completely leaving the place drunk. she doesn’t do this often since she seems to be a soft hearted and innocent girl but this time, she seemed like a changed person. she went all the way to a nearby bar by herself even if she knew the risks she can encounter.
walking across the streets that late was completely a terrifying idea but she still didn’t hesitate to do it.
indistinct chatters and hazy streetlights.
her body was trembling after all the dancing and probably because of the amount of alcohol she had that night, but then she saw a small club nearby the place she was from.
there was a small crowd compared to the bar she was in just a few minutes ago and she entered the room. loud music blasting and people were mostly in their seats resting on their back while some were standing at were completely focused on the girl that was located at the center of the crowd, dancing to the beat of the music.
the dark haired girl was all they were staring at and you took a glance to see her sexy moves as she dances in front of several people. some were cheering and some were even taking pictures. the girl faced the doorway where i was standing next to and the next thing i knew was my surrounding was completely frozen. my eyes were focused on her as she continued her dancing at the center of the room. the girl’s sharp moves were completely noticable and she was the clearly the center of attention.
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you have no idea how much i’ve missed seeing your face.
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thats all for today, so any thoughts on this chapter? <3
