dangerous | chaelisa

17

“you’d tell me that you loved me, I’ll be fine
and that’s what got me through the day alright.”
– day6 ; you were beautiful.

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chaeyoung’s pov.

“tell me whats wrong, I know there’s something bothering you lately.”

her words echoed inside my head as she slowly leaned closer to hold my hand on top of the table.

I took a deep breath for awhile and started thinking about the possibilities that could happen, if I chose to disobey them.

“lisa.” “my dad knows about it, you... and me.”

—

tw// harm

a week before.

I could remember every night I struggle with all the overflowing thoughts inside my head. I just wanted to be happy but why does it seem like it’s too impossible?

why does it feel like it would be better if I just never lived in the first place.

why?

people always throw their harsh words and actions at me, not even realizing how much i’m starting to hurt, or most likely suffer.

I suddenly heard a knock on my door, thinking twice before actually giving a response.

“what do you need now?”

“chaeyoung, i-it's your mom. let’s talk, please?” she stuttered, sounding like my mom would burst into tears any moment now.

“I don’t want to talk, to any of you.” I added.

as soon as I heard her footsteps slowly fading away, I curled up on my bed like a ball and cried myself to sleep again.

the next day, it was just the same. the usual.

I woke up and went downstairs to head for breakfast hoping that my parents left already for their job but when I sneaked down the staircase I heard them having a serious conversation.

“no, honey. she’ll get affected in all of this.”

“what, does it seem like I care? I can’t do anything.”

I didn’t know what exactly they were talking about but I was sure that it was me.

“stop acting like you fucking care, it’s not like she's our real daughter for fuck sake.” I heard my dad’s voice crack as he argued with my mom, I could feel my heart beating in a fast pace I can’t do this anymore.

I can’t pretend like im fine with this.

people mostly find me lucky enough to be in a rich family like ours but it didn’t matter if we we’re financially stable. It’s not like it can define a whole family and call it somewhat perfect, in fact I knew my family wasn’t perfect.

my friends would often envy me for having such nice items and expensive clothes but it didn’t really matter me. I know my parents spoiled me everytime but it isn’t enough to measure their love for me. It’s not like they were obligated to care about someone like me, who just used to be a mere stranger to them.

It’s not like they were obligated to love me like their real child.

days passed by and without even noticing I started to get this bad habit of cutting myself on my wrist.

just in case I could find a better way to end all of these.

I didn’t want to suffer anymore.

but someone saved me that day. the day I was already in the urge of taking after my own life, and ending all the terrible days i’ve had and still will experience.

she was always there for me.

I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket as I was resting my elbow on the bathroom sink, concluding if I should continue what I was about to do.

“are you okay?” I heard her horse voice over the phone, it seemed like she just woke up at this hour.

as our conversation continued to flow, I finally got myself out of all the miserable things I was about to do and I thought of something that would make me want to live longer.

it was her, the reason why I chose to continue my life.

—

“chaeyoung-ah” the younger one said as they entered the small house, removing her shoes as they stepped inside.

“you know you can stay here for awhile, right?”

“I’m happier when I see you safe.” she said reassuring the other girl whom completely dozed off after the long tiring day.

“thanks.” “I really do appreciate it lisa” a small smile was emitted on her face as she replied.

“It’s not big of a deal.”

“anything, for you.” she chuckled softly.

“you know that I love you so much, lisa” chaeyoung said as she quickly pecked her lips to tease her.

“hey you stole me a kiss...”

“I learned that from you.” chaeyoung smirked and playfully held the younger one’s fingers.

“I love you too.” the black haired girl said as she slowly went in for a hug.

lisa rested her chin on her back but then chaeyoung suddenly pulled away from the tight warm hug.

she leaned forward, giving her kisses and the atmosphere between the two slowly became heated.

the both of them carried themselves to the room and lisa was already on top of chaeyoung who was laying down on the soft mattress.

lisa started giving her warm kisses and bent in to give more access for her lips to enter her’s. she began to stick her tongue inside her mouth and slowly tasted her.

chaeyoung responded back and kissed her as well, her tongue entered her mouth and slowly departed away from the kiss as lisa went down to her neck, licking her slowly as she proceeded to suck her skin in a faster pace.

the both of them were heated and ended up tired as they laid beside eachother on the bed.

“you know what.”

“I’m actually glad I met you.” chaeyoung said staring at the ceiling as she was laying down beside lisa.

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