Torn Between Blue And Grey

yup confirmed I'm a psycho

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Walking down the school corridor,I keep thinking, how sweet my life is and i can't run from it. It's like a never ending horror and we are just getting started.
Pops knew exactly what i was going for, he sent me alone to test me. That son of a reindeer Ugh!!.
I remember when he recruited me three years ago, actually forced me to join. I kept blabbering of how much i hate Jason and Tasha and the world for losing my loved ones. He must have kept tabs on them all this while.

The bell rings, telling me I missed first period, physics. I scowl, that's my favourite subject,something I actually pay attention to and not being forced.
With that done,it means i have English next. Just great!! I made my way to the classroom and entered,my backpack light as feather.
The whole class stares at me and the teacher turns toward me...
"You're late cowell" he says..I have even forgotten that's my fake surname. I shrugged in that I don't care manner and took my seat besides Dan and the class continues.
It's best he ignored the issue and not annoy me. Dan realizes I am in a foul mood and passes his hand behind the chair to squeeze my fingers...

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It's lunch and I'm sitting between Dan and Jordan. I don't even know why they keep sitting with us. Yes I said "they" because where grey jerk is, Jesse and James are.. So far I've got nothing on them and it's really pissing me off cause that's the main reason pops sent me back to this shit hole..
Jason and Tasha, with her puppets came to our table and I fidgeted in my seat.
"Give me a break karma, I just slashed out this boy's mother" I growled in my head.

"Hey guys" Jason says and took a seat whiles Tasha sat on him instead..
Attention maniac i thought.. From the corner of my eye i see him looking at me and i ignore the stare focusing on the song playing in my earplugs..
People should really listen "try me by Tems"..
I see Tasha get up to go torment some girl sitting alone by the trashcan and i remember it's the same girl we saw the first day throwed near a locker, and right now she's about to dump food on the poor girl. For some reason it sparks a rage of anger in me. Seeing i was in that exact situation before the popular boy here no other than Jason of course asked me out and Tasha wanted to be friends. My social pariah went flying up from sticking at the sore bottom of the food chain.

I poked Dan to get his attention since he was rambling to James and the boys about soccer, something about the game yesterday between Manchester city and Chelsea.
"Yeah" he replies turning to me..
"I'll be right back"
"Lemme guess to cause trouble??"
"You know me so well" i said winking, pay attention and watch the show boy and with that i made my way to where the girl's sitting and miss flashy standing holding the food tray.
Today she's wearing bright orange short skirt and some cream coloured top showing enough cleavage which makes my inside organs shiver.

"Can i help you??" She asked me in a very unwelcoming high pitched voice.
"No, i replied cold. But you can leave her the fuck alone with your evil antics".

The girl who i still don't know, and forgotten her name looks shock at my outburst. Probably thinking why a girl like me is defending her.

I've been in that position before and the feeling sucks ..

I turned to the girl
"What's your name?" I asked.
"Katie" she replies,her lips trembling in fear. I nodded my head whiles Tasha just gives an eye roll.
"Well katie, do you want to come join me at my table" i say to her as calmly as i can and she bites her lip,thinking hard.The corners of  her mouth tugged upwards, realizing she's scared of me and my cold vibes and i smirk a bit.
"I don't bite" i tell her and she replies with an okay, nodding her head at the same time..

"You think I'm scared of you" Tasha called out as katie and i were walking away.
I turned to answer her "no, but you really should" I say smiling viciously..
I see her flinch and i smirk walking away with katie.

I plop back on my seat besides Dan, ignoring the stares of half the students and they resume talking after seeing the scene that just happened..
I look up to see katie standing, looking nervous and staring at us.
Oh stupid me.. I forgot she's never been in a situation like this.
"There's an empty chair by Jesse katie"i tell her and she sat down still uneasy.

I get her and i think I'm a psychotic idiot, i mean i just killed someone's mother and i feel no remorse, but seeing a girl being bullied gets me showing a little bit of concern. I'm really fucked up.

"Thank you for doing that" katie says pulling me out of my thoughts.
"Yeah sure" i said banging my fist on the table. Everyone stops what they're doing to look up at me.
"This is katie and a new friend, be nice to her or you'll be hearing from me and you won't like it". I say to them cold.
Jesse chuckles "i like her" he says.
Jordan looks at me slightly amused and i rolled my eyes. From that day at the club he's been spacing and not annoying me which is a good thing, but why do i miss his taunts. I ignore the voice in my head and turned to katie to see she's occupied by Jesse's stare and blushing faintly..
Oh well, what do you know there's hope after ..