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She looked like a child in awe, pointing the curved line in the sky.
"Beautiful, isn't it?" she asked me.
Beautiful? I couldn't agree. Mabigat na naman ang pakiramdan ko.
Melancholia. That's what I felt right now, looking at the rainbow.
"Know what?" she spoke softly.
"I remembered the picture that particular someone sent you. You looked sad in that photo. And looking at you, right now..."
"..she's right. You're sad. Bakit nga ba?"
Nakikinig ako sa kaniya. Pero, 'di ko siya kayang tingnan. I don't want her to look at me in the eyes and confirm her observation.
But, I admit, the way she speaks right now, it's somewhat soothing.
"Heard of black and white thinking?" Narinig ko tanong niya.
'Seriously? Black and white, huh?' I thought.
"Yep. And what about that?" I asked her.
"I just thought. I mean, look at you. Sa palagay ko, you're like that. Seeing things in black and white," she said, making me confused. I faced her with my brows furrowed.
"Don't take it literally," pagbawi niya.
"I'm not," pagtanggi ko. Pero sa totoo lang, I took it literally.
"In the spectrum between black and white, lies the gray area."
Narinig kong pagsisimula niya as if lecturing me about colors.
"People tend to see things in black and white. Always the opposites. No 'in-betweens'. Why not look at things in gray?" she continued.
'Seriously? It's a piece of cake. I'm seeing things in gray, literally.'
I smiled bitterly of that thought.
"Bakit ganyan ang mukha mo? Hindi ka naniniwala sa sinasabi ko?" tanong niya.
Umiling ako, "I'm just curious. Why are you telling me this?" tanong ko sa kanya.
Nagkibit-balikat siya. "Uhmm... SKL."
"Okay, hear me out. Malay mo, makatulong 'to sa'yo," she smiled at me.
"Whatever you say," I said in 'I-don't-care' tone.
"As I was saying, it's about seeing things in gray. It's not all black or all white. Katulad sa buhay, things aren't as bad or good as they seem. You just don't want to believe that there's something in between. Look at things as they really are, after all life's mixture of good and bad," she said meaningfully.
I want to stop her from talking, but I can't. I don't know, but I felt good hearing those words from her.
I get her point. And I think, she's right.
Easier said than done. Kaya ko ba talaga?
When you've been hopeless for a long time, could you just go back easily to being hopeful again?
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#SoWL
BINABASA MO ANG
Streak of White Light (Ongoing)
Художественная прозаHow could a person who had been spending his life with colors deal with seeing the world in shades of gray? √√√ "A spectrum of light in the sky, I saw. Up high appeared a rainbow. It was once a beautiful thing to me. Now, I see it in a different way...
