My Psychonautic Philosophy

Introduction

   The truth is: I don't know where to begin or why I'm writing this down at all. Is it because I'm scared I'll forget what I learned so I want to be able to look back at this to remind myself? Maybe. It could also be that I think this information could be life saving for someone else in the same way it's been for me. Do I want to share this beauty I've found within myself and the universe in hopes that others will see it too? I think the truths I discovered can save lives, drastically change society, but also end the world as we know it at the same time if everyone saw what I did, made the same discoveries that I did.
   The most frustrating part of this is going to be that whoever reads this, if anyone reads this, likely won't understand unless they themselves go through the same thing. They might grasp some parts, but there are so many layers and interlinking segments, it's a giant fucking web that we're all tangled up in and very few of us actually get the chance to take a step out of and look at to see the whole picture. I saw it though. I saw it and I hope to god that image stays burned into my memory forever because I never want to go back to living my life the way I was before.
   I think a lot of people are going to say I'm insane, that I've lost my mind, when they read this, and that's okay. Truth be told, I did lose my mind, but I can extrapolate on that later. For the sake of just introducing the ideas for now, I lost my mind in return for finding a lot of answers. Beautiful answers, some of them to questions I didn't even really know I had. I'm finally awake and seeing the world for what it really is for the first time in nineteen years and let me just say that the world, and being in it, looks, and feels so much more awesome than I ever thought as who I was before now that I feel so... enlightened? That sounds cheesy but I really do feel like I understand everything now. I want others to feel this happy and in love with life too. I want to record the amazing things I've learned, and am still learning so that they may not be forgotten. I want to express my newfound love for the universe by teaching others about it while also reminding myself of the lessons in the process. That's why I'm writing this, and in this explanation of life we only really have one place to start: my death.