The Ring Of Destiny

Losing what matters (Chapter 4)

I was controlling my tears but they started falling anyway. Just then Jiyoung turned back and saw me with eyes filled with tears. His looks said that he was shocked to see me there. He came to me and was about to say something but before he could, I said

Y/N:"We are over."

Jiyoung:"Wait! I can explain. I didn't mean to hurt you, it's just..."

Y/N:"Hurt me!? You already did when you decided to be with her. To cheat on me. I loved so much and all you did was treat me this way, and also after you proposed me. Seriously!? Would've been much better if you never proposed me in the first place!"

Jiyoung:"Y/N, wait please just listen to me."

Y/N:"There's nothing left to say or see, it's just over. I am done with all this shit. Please stop it. I can't anymore. Just...leave me alone."
He was about to say something when I turned back and went home.

After that the only thing left in my life were depression and breakdowns. Everyday was hell for me. I didn't do anything wrong or treated anyone wrong to not be able to feel love. All I did was love and this is what I get for being loyal, heartbreak. Everyone I love is always taken away from. Why do God do this with me?

Ending my life was the only option left. My parents already left me when I was nine. My dad died in a car accident, which was strange because the cops found his body in the driver seat but no fingerprints on the steering wheel. And my mom died because of food poisoning. Which was complete nonsense, because I ate the same food mom cook for us that night.

[Author's POV][FLASHBACK]
Mom:"Dear. If you won't eat anything how can you be a healthy girl. Your dad wouldn't want you to be sick."

Young Y/N: "He's not here. He won't...want anything." Y/N was crying.

Mom:"Y/N don't say like that. Your dad would obviously want you to be strong in times of this. Please be strong and healthy for your dad."

Y/N:'What if you'll leave me too? You will right?" Mom smiled

Mom:"No, I won't ever leave your side. I promise that I'll stay with you forever. How can I leave my cute little girl all alone? I won't, I promise. Now eat this or I'll stuff this in your mouth." Mom laughed.
[End of flashback]

I ate from her plate and the cops said that there was poison on the plate. How is it is possible that I'm alive and mom's not. My aunt saw my mom's death body was lying on her bed when she came in the morning, the next day. The cops also said that it might have been suicide, which I won't ever believe because she didn't wanted to die. She wanted to live, she wanted to live for her daughter, for her husband. A woman that feels this way won't commit suicide. And even if it was food poisoning she'd make some noise or try to make noise by throwing things on the floor. I was suffering from insomnia after my dad's death, so I couldn't go to sleep so easily. I'd stay up all night. And that night I didn't heard any noise from my mom's room. That is why I feel like my parents death is not so easily definable.

[Present][Y/N's POV]
I have the courage to live just because of my parents now. They would never want me to kill myself just for some guy who never loved me. My parents love is why I'm still able to live. Love is my biggest fear now. I don't like being liked by anyone. I always feel everyone have a reason to like me. I usually stayed away from everyone during those traumatic months. I even changed the city I was living in to get away from him. After the depressing phase of my life, there came a ray of light in my life, that made me realise that not everyone in this world is selfish and bad. My friend Irene. She was the kindest and lovable person I ever met. She made me feel happy again, she made me feel that I was not alone in this world. Irene is my best friend now.

Some people are meant to come into your life to make it worse and some meant to make it better, Irene was here to make it better. I cherished her and our friendship, more than anything I did before.

*Day after meeting the guy in alley*
The next day I woke up at 7:13 a.m. I woke up because of the nightmares again. I've been seeing the same nightmares after my mother's death. I see a mansion, with guards, something like in the ancient times. I see many things but two men are always there. One of them made me feel disgusted and the other, he always gives me a different feeling when I see him just like the guy. But the thing is that I never saw the men's faces in my nightmares, they were always blurred. The guy in the alley, he had a strange aura around him but it was familiar in someway. I was tired after searching for the ring. My leg muscles were aching so I decided to relax again since it was a holiday and also I needed to keep my mind off things.

I accidentally slept and woke up at 12 p.m. I missed my breakfast, and as I am too lazy to cook my own food, I decided to have my brunch outside. I did my routine that was supposed to be done in the morning and got dressed and went out.

The rain drizzled as I opened my umbrella and went out to the street. The clouds were dark and there was no sunlight to be seen. There were less people on the streets since it was raining. I put my earphones on and made my way to my favourite place. I reached the place only to see that it was closed.

Y/N:"What a lucky day!" I said to myself being annoyed with my luck.

I turned back and saw the same guy who was on the bridge. I could say that he was the same guy because...I don't know,I just felt it.

I decided to confront him this time but before I could he walked away, as always. I was determined that I won't follow him this. I watched him slowly fade from my vision in the rain.

Y/N:"Aaaugh! I hate myself."

After saying that I went after him. I couldn't help but follow because of this little feeling telling me to do it. And once again I was behind him, watching his movements. I knew that he knew that I was following him but it didn't matter at the time. Then he took a turn. I did the same but I now he wasn't in that street. I was just few feets away from him and now he's nowhere to be seen. It was a more quieter street than the others.

I walked further in the street to get a chance to see him again, but I did not find him anywhere instead I saw an old restaurant. I was really hungry by that time so I decided to just forget about the guy and eat something.

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