The Logical Struggle

CH 9 - the talks

The rest of the day continued as normal with Roman and Janus being extra careful of their friend. As the end of the day drew closer and all of the kids were lining up getting ready to get their bags and go home for the day. Me. Stone pulled the three kids aside. "Would you guys be able to stay for a few minutes? I want to talk to you about what happened earlier

Roman and Janus did not hesitate when they nodded wanting to understand what happened and how they can make it stop, however Logan's face went white. "M'not possed to get home late." he mumbled to the older man. 

"Do you think if I had the office give your Uncle a call he would understand and let you stay after for about ten minuets?" Patton asked. 

Logan stared at him not knowing what to say until he eventually spoke. "I think Uncle Eric will be ok with it if you tell him." 

"Ok then I will have them call your parents too." Patton said to the other two. "Now go get your bags." he said. he poked his head in the door of the next classroom over to ask if that teacher could watch the rest of the third graders while he ran down to the office. Once he got confirmation he went down to the office to ask the secretary to call the boys families. She called the families while he went back to his heard of eager third graders. "Don't forget you have your reading and math assignments to do tonight." He called to the rowdy kids. "Have a great night I will see you tomorrow." He said leading them out of the school and watching as they went to the bus or to their parents. Patton then walked back into the school with the three boys. 

Suddenly there was a knock at the door. Patton Got up to answer open it and when he stood up to open the door for the secretary, who wanted to tell him what time the boys families would come and pick them up, he didn't notice Logan practically jumping out to the ceiling when he heard the noise. He knew that it was just the nice lady who always had candy on her desk, but after his attack earlier he was incredibly on edge and even little things like the sound of a knock on the classroom door worried him, so he shrunk away as the teacher got closer to him again. Patton sat down in front of him. "Do you want me to start or do you want to?" He asked calmly.

Logan cut him off with fear in his eyes. "Don't tell anyone else." He said. "I don't want him finding out." He whispered the last part. 

"Don't want who to find out Lola?" Patton asked. 

Logan looked down. "Don't call me that." He said still avoiding the eyes of the others. 

"What do you mean? That is your name isn't it?" Patton asked while Janus looked at the boy confused. 

Logan shook his head crying again. Even though almost all of the remaining people in the room were insanely confused, Roman gave his friend a hug witch was happily received. "It's ok Logan." He whispered so only the other boy could hear. 

After another minute Logan slowly calmed down, and when Patton saw this he spoke up again. "Is there anything you need to talk about?" He asked the child in front of him he smiled sympathetically when Logan nodded. He was still crying though and hugging Roman. 

"Are you going to talk to them Lo?" Roman asked. 

Logan nodded. "I don't know what it's called or if there is even a word for it but my Daddies started calling me Logan instead of Lola. I don't know why but it made me feel happier." He said. "But Uncle Eric told me that's bad and I can't tell people that when I'm at school."

Patton looked at the Logan a little disappointed, not in Logan but in himself for not realizing the boy was uncomfortable and most of all in Eric for treating him as a minority. 

Logan saw the look in Patton's eyes and immediately shrunk down in his chair. "M'sorry." He mumbled. "You can keep calling me Lola it doesn't matter." 

Patton smiled sympathetically. "You don't need to be sorry It's ok." Logan nodded but still didn't look convinced. "It isn't  a big deal. I promise." Patton said. "I still need to talk to you guys about earlier. He saw the kids nod and he continued. "Lo as that happened before?" He started off the conversation. 

Logan nodded. "It happens a lot at home. I'm sorry it happened at school. I didn't mean to." He said. 

Patton sighed. "You don't need to be sorry hon." he said sympathetically. "Do you know what caused you to panic today?" He asked with a small smile.

"Roman." He mumbled. Then he immediately looked scarred and apologetic. "He didn't mean to he was just trying to get me to go with him." He said. after a second he saw Patton nod. He assumed that he would need more of an explanation. "He grabbed my hand here." he said putting his own hand on his wrist. "It scarred me and reminded me of what he does and I didn't like it."

Patton nodded. "It's ok Logan. Take a deep breath." He said when he saw that he was panicking again. "It ok." He repeated.

Once he saw Logan had calmed down Roman asked a question. "What was that anyway?" He asked referring to the panic attack his friend had earlier. 

Logan shrugged. "I don't know what it's called but it happens when I get really scarred."

Patton looked at the kids. "I believe you had a panic attack." Patton said. "My husband gets them sometimes too so I have some experience." Patton said. 

Roman nodded. "Do we know everything now?" he asked.

Patton laughed. "I think it would be pretty hard to know everything but I'd say you know everything that you need to know right now unless you have any questions for Logan or myself." he said

Janus raised his hand then asked his question. "How can I not make that happen." He asked worried.  

They all looked at Logan. Waiting for him to answer. "Don't grab my wrist and don't sneak up on me." He said. "I also don't like loud noises." He admitted hesitantly. 

"Is that why you don't like recess?" Roman asked.

Logan nodded. "It's loud and recess makes everything hurt." he admitted. The he realized he had said to much and gasped. "Don't tell my uncle I told you." he whispered. 

Patton looked at him. "What do you mean it makes everything hurt?" but he dropped the subject when Logan shook his head and told him how he can't tell.

Janus nodded. "but what if it dose happen again." he asked. 

Logan pointed to Patton. "Tell Mr. Stone." he said. 

Patton checked the time. "Do you guys have any more questions?" he asked. Once he saw them both shake there heads he continued. "You guys need too go now thank you for staying with me your parents are probably here. I'll see you tomorrow." He said standing up and ushering them out.