EPITHYMÌA (Book 2): Love and Desires

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Im trying to calm myself dahil baka mabasag ko lang ang mukha ni Daryl at ng hitad ka kahalikan niya kanina. Ano pa kaya ang mangyayari kung hindi kami dumating ng anak niya!?

"Surprise daddy!!" Sigaw ni Dale galing sa likuran ko.

Akmang tatakbo pa sana siya sa daddy niya pero agad ko itong pinigilan.

"Baby we forgot to bring some dessert. Why dont you and miss secretary here buy some, you can choose whatever flavor you want." I tried to be gentle in speaking dahil ayokong makahalata si Dale of what is happening.

"Okay mommy.." ngiti niyo at kumaway pa sa daddy niya na ngayon ay namumutla na.

Pagkalabas ni Dale at nung Secretary ay bumalik ang matigas na tingin ko kay Daryl.

"S-sweetie... i-its not what you think.." he utter habang papalapit sakin. He tried to reach my hand but i slap it off.

"I cant believe this is happening all over again." I almost whisper.

Napatingin ako sa babaeng hitad at halatang gulat siya sa pagdating ko.

"Excuse me Miss but i think youre interupting us. Who are you anyway?" Mataray na tanong nung babae.

Umigting ang panga ko sa pinakita niyang ekspresyon.

"Why dont you tell her who am i Daryl, or maybe you really want to keep us as your secret."

"Sweetie this is a mistake. Yung nakita mo kanina it was nothing. I was about to push i swear! Believe me i really wanted to tell everything. Naunahan lang ako ng pagkakataon."

"That what Daryl? That youve been f3cking away women to have your satisfactions? And this slut is one of them!?" Hindi ko na napigilan pang ilabas ang galit ko.

I thought Daryl changed, i saw it when we were in the farm but after we came back unti unti nang bumabalik ang lahat sa dati. I dont know if this land is a curse for us but damn! How unlucky of me!

"How dare you call me slut! Im not just her f3cker bitch! Im his fiance kaya wala kang karapatang pagsalitaan ako!"

At natigilan ako at sinabi nung babae.

"Shut up Arisse! Can you please get out of here!"

Halata ang gulat sa mukha nung Arisse dahil sa sigaw sakanya ni Daryl. He didnt leave my side na para bang takot siyang tumakbo ako palabas. But i wont do it this time. Kailangan ay matuto na akong lumaban, not only for me but for my son.

"Did you just shouted on me Daryl?" Mapanuyang tanong ni Arisse.

"Arisse please.."

"You never shouted at me or even got angry with me. Sino ba siya para gawin mo to sakin ha!? Im your fiance for pete sake!" Sabi nito habang nagbabadyang umiyak.

"Im his Ex-wife...and the mother of his child!"ako na mismo ang nagsalita.

At tuluyan ng umiyak si Arisse. Dahan na lumapit si Daryl sakanya trying to calm her down.

"Arisse im sorry. I was about to tell you but you were in Australia. Ayokong saktan ka, i know i promised you a wedding but please understand i have a son and i want to give him a complete family. "

Pak!!!!

Napasinghap ako sa ginawa ni Arisse. He slapped Daryl in his cheeks and punch his chest.

"How could you do this to me Daryl! I love you! You're the only guy i want to be with but damn you for doing this!!!" Iyak niya habang pinagsusuntok ni Daryl.

"Im sorry Arisse, believe me i loved you but not the way you expect me to be. I tried but i cant because i already love someone else. I wanted to forget but my heart keeps reminding me of her. Im sorry Arisse, im sorry." Pilit ng paghingi ng tawag ni Daryl, he even hugged her but she pushed him away.

"Pinaasa mo ko. Tama nga si Daddy. You only wanted to marry me so you could build your empire! Youre evil Daryl! So evil!"

"Im sorry." Daryl again apologize.

Napaiwas na lamang ako ng tingin. I cant blame her. Kung ako din ang nasa posisyon niya i would berserk. She just loved Daryl but he cant give her the love she wants. And that is because of me and my son.

Unti unting humupa ang iyak ni Arisse. Napatingin ito sakin, hindi ko maiwasang maawa sakanya.

"You're lucky to have his heart but i cant be happy for the both of you."

Nanatili akong tahimik hanggang sa umalis na siya sa loob ng opisina ni Daryl. Ilang minutong napuno ng katahimikan ang buong kwarto. Nakayuko lamang si Daryl and feeling all the guilt right now.

Dahan dahan akong lumapit sakanya.

"Im sorry for all of this Hera. I wanted to tell you but... im sorry." Punong puno ng hinanakit niyang sabi.

"If you think i would runaway right now then dont. I may be angry but it doesn't mean that i will do the same things i did five years ago."

Napatingin siya sakin at agad akong niyakap.

"I thought you'll leave me again. Hindi ko na yata kakayanin yun Hera. Id rather die than not being with you and Dale."

"Dont say that." Suway ko sakanya.

"I already learn from what happened to us and running away wont solve anything. It will just mean that you are a coward for not fighting. But what you did to Arisse was unacceptable Daryl. Did you just use her?"

Daryl sighed at kumalas sa yakap niya sakin. He hold my hands and squeeze them.

"The first time i met her was when his father came up to me and have a business deal. She was nice and very caring. I got too comfortable around her in just a short time. Maybe because i just lost Bridget and im longing for you. And i.. i."

Hindi niya maituloy ang sasabihin niya but i think i already know.

"And you slept with her."

"Im sorry, i know i messed up. She agreed to be  one of my bedmates. Until his father and i planned to build an empire that is why we wanted Uncle Rafael's farm. But he has conditions. He wanted me to marry Arisse and he will make me my empire. I immediately agreed to it, i guess greed and power got the best out of me. I never thought of anything and maybe because i became heartless by then."

"I know Arisse liked me and i tried so hard to love her back but i guess i cant and every time i see her i only remembered you how much i wanted you but you cant be with me. I used her not only for my selfishness but also on my emotional state."

Matapos ng kwento niya ay para akong naputulan ng dila. I dont even know what to say. After everything that has happened parang nawalan na ako ng lakas para sa mga darating pa.

"I know youre thinking how evil i am right now but im trying to fix everything. I only want what is best for you and Dale. I was a jerk before and maybe this is my karma for everything I've done for hurting a lot of people including you."

"Dont say that Daryl. Everything happens for a reason and maybe this is one of them. I know that you're doing everything for us and i understand. All i want is for you to tell me everything not only to prove your faithfulness but also to help you."

I carress Daryl's cheek and made him look at me. His eyes were full of emotion and most of it is pain.

"I love you..weve come a long way already and im not giving up this time not unless you give me a reason to."

He move his hand on mine and put it in his lips to kiss it.

"I love you too Hera. I know im not one of those ideal guy out there but one thing is for sure and that is i will always fight just to have you here with me. And ill never get tired to fight for my love again and again.