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idea 11: Hurt

He is a boy that is so mysterious. I never knew the real him. I only know his outside's personality. Back then, he was my boyfriend. But after 7 month being together, we broke up. He was hurt, and I don't know about that.

I'm a girl who knows nothing about love. I don't believe in love, even though I had so many boyfriends. But I don't feel it. I do feel the love they gave to me, but I was foolish and didn't loved them back. I have a reason for it.

I'm thinking, ' why would you love someone when it's clearly, they are not meant to be yours forever, they are not your soulmate, they will eventually let go of you. ' That's the reason why I don't really love someone.

Back to him, when we broke up, he was saying sorry multiple of times to me, but I reassure him, I'm okay, I don't feel hurt at all, and I put a laugh emoji beside those words. And after he stop saying sorry, he says this to me ..

"So it was true, people say, you don't love me.. I was not going to trust them, I trusted you more than them. But look, you really doesn't love me until the day of our break up."

Those words hit me. I'm speechless. He was hurt, and I didn't give a fuck of it. I'm ashamed of myself.

After it we don't talk anymore like we used to, but instead we being friends.

Days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months, and months turn into years. I didn't realised it, it's been 4 years, yet we still close to each other.

It just that, I started to like him back. I mean, I kinda love him now. But he already move on, and I didn't. I felt so stupid for feeling this way, but I can't help but to fall miserably.

He knew about my feelings toward him, yet he act like he don't know. But the miserable point is that, we're classmate, he is kind to me, he is funny to me, he treats me like a princess but not when he turn into a beast.

After all, I thought he might felt the same way.

But I got hurt knowing that he already has someone new.

Seeing him with his new girlfriend made me wants to cry, but I kept it. After months, I don't really knows what happened to them. They don't contact each other anymore, are they broke up?

That's a good news for me right? I can take him as mine again right?

But I'm scared, he might reject me. I'm scared to get hurt. What should I do?