𑁍︎Tᴇᴀʀs𑁍︎

Realization (Days Pass)

Show me the Light I have never seen in the dark.

Day 8 (Time skip, I know)

"Akaashi, Do you ever feel alone?"

What do you think I feel everyday?

"Yeah, sometimes."

Really? Wow, Akaashi feels lonely?

Days have passed. Nothing usual. I discovered 12 of Bokuto-san's weaknesses. Lately, I feel so, happy. Like I wish I could stay here forever.

People still bully me though. There is this gang that bullies me me everytime they see me. Gosh I hate them. I can't tell anyone about this though.

Day 12

Me and Bokuto-san plays a lot of soothing songs for the team every after practice. I'm thankful they actually like watching us perform like this. Not discriminating me.

Day 13

Bokuto-san keeps saying my name the wrong way— ITS A-K-A-A-S-H-I but he says it like AGHAASHEE. Oh god, please help me.

Day 14

Bokuto-san wanted to meet Suga, Yaku and Iwaizumi. I allowed him to go with me to the cafe. It went okay. He keeps talking about me like he knows everything about me. I feel like I have established a friendship with this guy. I still have trust issues though.

Day 15

Me and Bokuto-san have been practicing a lot. It doesn't matter though, because I can see a Bokuto no one could see, a hot one— EHEM— I MEAN A DETERMINED ONE.

Day 16

Bokuto-san treated me to Ramen, and it was really sweet coming from him. We talked about how music makes us happy. I feel comfortable having him around.

Day 17

Bokuto-san was absent for today, I felt really lonelyyyy. Gosh, I feel like i'm clinging onto him too much. I shouldn't get too attached...

Day 18

Bokuto-san came back to school, the reason why he was absent was because he accidentaly woke up late. He says it's no big deal.

Day 19

Bokuto-san is one JERK! HE KEPT WHINING! I COULDN'T SNAP AT HIM BECAUSE HE WOULD GO EMO MODE AND WE WOULD LOSE AGAINST NEKOMA, I SWEAR I WILL FUCKING KILL ME SUBDKADBJAHEIDHUX

Day 20

I completely ignored Bokuto-san and now I feel guilty— i'll make it up to him tomorrow. He was sulking in the corner, and kept saying "Akaashi hates me what do I do?!" He kept mumbling it and I gave a worried glance at him, though he didn't notice.

Day 21

I bought an owl plushie, a volleyball keychain and Owl PUNS.

What I said was:
PLEASE FORGIVE ME BOKUTO-SAN! PLEASE STAY AND BE MY FRIEND!
COME ON POWL!

He hugged me saying he didn't need all these things. But still took em anyway cause I wasted money for it—and said that he wouldn't leave me no matter what.

Day 22

Im starting to like the company Bokuto-san gives me... I dont know what to call it, but I wanna stay by his side everyday, and never leave.

Day 37

Me and Bokuto-san watched the sunset in the park. It was beautiful. Until he said a bunch of OWL PUNS.

Day 38

I feel so... Fuzzy whenever Bokuto-san compliments me. B-But he does that all the time! Why am I feeling flustered about this!

Day 40

Gosh... I have come to realize... That I have a little crush on Bokuto-san. BUT WHAT IF THIS BREAKS OUR FRIENDSHIP?! WHAT IF I GET KICKED OF THE TEAM?! WHAT IF HE'LL NEVER WANT TO SEE ME?! GAHHHH! I AM GONNA NEED TO KEEP THIS A FUCKING SECRET!

Day 41

Realization... If I have a relationship with Bokuto-san, It would be hard. Considering I am a Second year and he is a Third year... I guess it can't be helped.

Day 42

Realization... I don't even know if Bokuto-san is gay! This love is so unrequited that it's... Kinda... Tearing me apart...

Day 45

I took a break from school... I don't want to face Bokuto-san. I feel like I would cry a river if I do that. People think i'm not emotional nor am I the type to think about romance.....

WELL, THEY'RE HELLA WRONG!

Day 46

Welp... I'm gonna need a plan to kill these feelings inside my heart. I WANT IT TO GO AWAY!!! IT FEELS HORRIBLE IT BURNSSSS!!!!