𑁍︎Tᴇᴀʀs𑁍︎

Sick

Akaashi Keiji

I woke up on a bench. Everyone panicking. I sat up to see the two who didn't care, kissing...

My throat suddenly tightened as tears rolled down my face. It hurts. It hurts to know that the person you love, loves someone else.

I ran to the clubroom to start coughing up blood.

Blood and petals.

***
Petals

Beautiful, fragrant and delicate.
I am a petal.
Tear me apart, as small as you want.
You'll forget about me,
but i'll never forget the way you tore my heart.

***
Blood

Red and important.
My love for you is my blood.
My love for you is important.
My love for you is what keeps me  living.
Without you, I wouldn't be here.
And yet it feels like my blood is just something I dream about.
My blood is still there, yet it is cold and dead.
It has no use.
Especially to you.
My love for you is alive while my heart has no longer a pattern of pulses.

***

I wrote this down in my notebook once I got out of the clubroom. That was all I can do since I was benched for the last 2 hours of practice.

Finally, practice ended. My lungs were burning, but I hid it well. No one noticed the hurt and pain I have been going through for the whole practice.

Not that he cares anyway.

All I could think about while changing was how I could move on.

He's too special to move on to.

My head was still blank. Why did I cough out blood and petals earlier?

He loves someone else.

How will I keep this from my team? Should I tell someone?

You'll drag them down.

Maybe Kenma can help me? I mean, he still accepts me, right? I mean he is a trustworthy friend.

Friends? Who said you were friends with Kenma?

***

"Akaashi. AKAASHI!" Suddenly I was broken from my thoughts.

"Hey Konoha?" I said. It turned out to be a question instead.

"You were spacing out. What for?"

"I was just... Thinking..."

"Thinking of?"

"Something... Well, I need to go to a friend's house! Bye!"

FRIENDS?! KENMA ISNT YOUR FRIEND! HE DOESN'T ACCEPT YOU!

***

I was infront of Kenma's door. I hesitated for a second, but chose to ring the doorbell anyways. The door opened revealing a short boy with hair that resembles pudding.

"Oh, Hi Akaashi!" He said with a slight smile.

"Hey Kenma-san..."