TRAP BY ILLUSION √ (EDITING)

08

DARK, gloomy, and quiet. Panic could be seen on her face as she prevented herself to tremble, "... I didn't kill her---- I can't kill her! B-but she deserve it! She deserved to die!" Cahyaea almost whispers and began crying. She's walking alone in the hospital corridor, trying to avoid everyone.

She's still not healed yet, fresh cuts and bruises are very visible on her skin. She started to feel psychotic again especially when Bliss left her and chose to go home even if she wasn't healed too. She's drained, tired and badly wanted to rest. She's so pale but she can't stay relax on her hospital room, she often saw her mother's shadow everytime she blinks. She's thinking of something like what if her mother was coming to get her.

Cahyaea's feet brought her to the garden. Some of the patients are there too, watching the beauty of the surroundings. She went near a bench and sat down. She wants to escape from everything, the media were looking for her especially the officers.

Someone sat beside her. It was an old lady, looking at her with a slight smile.
"... You seems sad, child. Mind telling me your problems?" The old lady said. Cahyaea couldn't move, she was surprised. Nitong mga nakaraang araw ay hindi talaga siya mapalagay, tila binalot ulit siya ng kalungkutan—ng kadiliman.

Hindi niya matanggap ang pag alis ni Bliss, nasaktan ulit siya. She really thought that Bliss would stay with her since they became friends already, but she was wrong. Cahyaea wished to see her again, maybe not now but sooner.

It feels like it's the very first time that someone seems concern about her. Ibang-iba pa rin kasi ang pakiramdam kung paano mag pakita ng concern si Bliss kumpara sa ibang taong hindi niya kakilala. But somehow, she feels as if she's been with unfamiliar images long time ago. The same feeling, gladness and comfort.

"Go on, don't be afraid to share your thoughts. Sometimes, you really need to let it out in order to feel better." The old lady smiled so sweetly at her. It made Cahyaea feel a little bit of glad. She's just not used to it when someone is being concern and worry, actually she haven't felt it for too long. Everyone left her,

"I was sad, and t-tired. I want to get away from everything." Cahyaea stated and paused. She looked at the old lady and found her smiling while nodding, saying to continued talking.

"A-actually, I'm sick of being hurt. My mother once told me t-that I shouldn't live, she keeps on telling me that I should die."

The old lady gasped and her expression became more worried. She tapped Cahyaea's shoulder and cheered her up. "No one in this world deserve to die, sweetie. Because each and everyone has a purpose to live."

"I am very certain that you're here to value things and be valued. You're here to experience and learn new things." The old lady said. Cahyaea seems to be puzzled, she's confused upon hearing the words from the old lady. She remained silence, while sitting beside her—looking at her in the eyes for the very first time.

".... Mothers supposed to love and take good care to their children, right? B-but why am I being left out and treated like a trash? S-she always hurt me, she d-doesn't like me." Cahyaea almost whispered. The old lady smiled bitterly at her and fixes her gaze to the beautiful scenery. Her heart started to pound slowly which made her breathe heavily,

"Your mother must have been in a tough situation which made her do that to you. Maybe she's been experiencing horrible things from the past which triggers her to hurt you. Let's say she's wrong about hurting you, but you can forgive her, do you?"

Cahyaea shook her head and tears began falling from her eyes. "N-no! I tried to forget everything she has done to me, but I just can't! I can't! I'll never forgive her, because in the first place, she never even care for me!" She couldn't help herself but to cry. Tila sinaksak ang damdamin niya dahil sa sobrang sakit ng nararamdaman, dahil sa kanyang pag iyak ay nauutal siyang mag salita.