Something About Him

Part 4

"Watch your language, Delilah. Do you really want me to report you for inappropriate behavior AND language? You are basically begging to be sent home early. If I were you I would go think about your actions and ask for forgiveness of your disgusting sins."

"Yeah right. Eat dirt, bitch." I then stormed off while Abby screamed complaints and threats of damnation and detention from behind me. I probably should have apologized to Leon first before raging and storming off. Fucking bitch. I just can't believe her. Like, why does she have to ALWAYS poke her nose into EVERYONE ELSE'S BUSINESS? Is it REALLY that hard to just be, oh I don't know, a GOOD PERSON maybe?! Oh but I forgot I'm the bad person right? Gonna have a tea party with Satan and munch on some biscuits or some shit because oh me oh my I KISSED A BOY. HOW SCANDALOUS. I can't even imagine what her reaction would have been if it was a girl that I was kissing back there. That homophobic prick probably would have screamed and ran for the hills begging the lord to wash her mind clean from all the attrocious sin she had just witnessed. It's like she forgot lgbtq+ are people too, or maybe her sad ass just doesn't know what love is. It's not my fault that she is mad about her not having a hot guy to kiss. I stop in my tracks. Wait. Did I just call Leon hot? Shit. I better not be catching feelings again. Or did the original feelings never fade? I don't know ugh. Is he even hot? Would other people think he is hot? Wait if they did then would I even be good enough? He would have a whole world of people who he could be with so why would he even choose me? No no no no. We are not doing this right now. Remember what we promised ourself. Straight A's, no more boys. We have to focus on school and--oh god. Am I talking in plural now? Fuck me. I guess it's one of those days. I need a break. Ugh.

    That was way too many emotions in way too short of a time span. And now I realize that I am angrily walking in a pool of random trees and some random direction and quite honestly I don't have a clue which direction civilization is. I'm not horribly worried though because if I scream loud enough someone will probably hear me. Hopefully.

I spot a rock that looks pretty comfy so I lay on it and stare into the hypnotic gray sky that is now dusted with snow. The swirling cold floaty thingies spiral and dance around in the sky, performing strange acrobatic routines and sparkling with frozen patterns. My mind is taken by the cold and I'm relaxed. I hate the cold, and snow unless it creates a snow day, but when the sky can provide an escape, it proves very likable. I figure it's probably not the best idea to fall asleep out here

    I open my eyes and realize that it is a lot darker outside than it was a second ago. I check my phone and see that dinner is in a few minutes. I scan my surroundings to get a sense of where exactly I am, then I take a guess and start down the hill. Once I reach the other side of the valley, I am relieved to discover that I chose the correct direction. I head towards the dinning house.