Thoughts of a 17 year old

Left on read

I don't usually care
I don't know why I do now
You left me on read
Now my heart hurts n' I don't know how.
You say you care
You say I matter
But in which way?
You only need me when your hearts shattered.
When you're broken
When you're scared
When you feel like nobody ever cared.
I have always been here
Comforted every little tear
But you don't see that I love you
You don't see that it's only you
When we don't talk I hurt
I let go and pretend you were never here.
Then you come back and cause unimaginable fear
I don't find you scary...
I find the fact that I love you intimidating.
I wish you kept me on read so I wouldn't pretend
Pretend that at some point you could love me in the end