Maddy's Talent

The disapproval

His tongue went crazy in my mouth,venturing every single area. I forced his lips from mine and gave him a saddened look. My mind was just filled with emotions and thoughts. I couldn't be with Jack as we had just met. Even though I felt this connection with him,I couldn't help but remember Nathen. His beatings and punches had vanished physically but definitely not mentally.
I just stayed still. I didn't know what to say. How could I reject him? I wanted to be with him but it was impossible.

"It's too early,we've only met once."
The words finally came out whilst tears ran down my cheek as I didn't want to loose him. I didn't care if we just met. I felt a connection but my fate was to be alone. Nathen haunting me forever.
I couldn't start dating,well not after how my last boyfriend turned out,I just couldn't and I wished he could understand that.

"B..but the moment I saw you I fell in love with you,you're perfect."

Jack replied shakily. What if he wasn't like Nathen,thinking of him made me shudder. Why was he so desperate for me? I didn't ever see this guy before yet he wanted me,badly.

"I have to go...bye."
I quickly replied before wiping my hot tears and quickly getting out my keys from my purse and unlocking the door. Giving him one last glance,staring into his dark blue eyes,It was like falling into his deep trance,I quickly closed the door. Get back into reality Maddy. That guy cost you a job and a lecture from Kat. Forget about him. My mind was just encouraging me to forget about him but deep down,I knew I couldn't.

It was an everlasting battle between my mond and my heart. My mind would scream but my heart wouldn't agree. I didn't know which one to pick most of the time. Why was all of this so hard for me all the time!

Why did you do that,not all boys are like Nathen,why are you so afraid.

My heart echoed those sentences constantly. As much as I wanted to believe that,I couldn't. In most guys I saw Nathen. Even if I felt something for them,I still saw Nathen.
It was all so confusing. At everything in life. In my life to be exact.

"Maddy where were you?"
It was Kat and I then realised that I had shockingly been gone for a long while.

"I'm sorry,time flies when your having fun."
I replied awkwardly hoping she would just drop the situation and let me just rethink what I had done this day.  Avoiding her was my main goal but I,like everything,was failing miserably.

"I thought you said you were going out with an old friend,what friend?"
Kat asked and I was positive that she knew that I lied.

"I met a boy when I was going to the interview,he knocked over my things and before I knew it I....missed the interview."
I confessed reluctantly.Her narrow eyes that were staring at me turned into a pair of bulging eyes and an 'O' shaped mouth. What she was about to say to me now was most likely a warning about how I shouldn't be dating.

"I dont think you should start dating number one is you've only met him today and number two...remember how Nathen turned out to be like"

I was starting to get really annoyed about people and myself warning me about my ex-boyfriend. He was locked up,behind bars for goodness sakes. Why was everyone obsessing about him coming back! He was in the past so why couldn't I just move on with my life. Tears streamed down my face as I wished everything could go back to the happy times before Nathen appeared.

"He's locked up,gone!But everyone keeps reminding me about him! I know he almost killed me! I know he battered my face! I really don't need you or anyone else warning me about him when all I want is to move on with my life!"
I yelled through my sobs and immediately ran up the stairs and into my bedroom and just laid there on my bed.

"He is in the past."

I whispered and cried,but I knew he wasn't gone.He was never just gone.

SO I REALLY HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE THIS CHAPTER!
-WHO IS NATHEN?
-WHY IS MADDY SO AFRAID?
WELL THAT WILL ALL BE IN THE BE IN THE NEXT CHAPTER IF YOU COULDN'T ALREADY TELL.
~Vicky