Heal
"Ivy lilipat ka ba?" jaze asked while eating our lunch.
"Probably yes" walang gana kong sagot.
Our junior high school life will end this week.
I'm planning to transfer from another school.
I might go to Klevin Christian School.
"Saan mo ba balak lumipat?" she asked again.
Alam kong malungkot sya kasi lilipat ako.
Jaze will stay here.
She love our school so much lol.
"Klevin siguro, mukhang maganda doon eh" I smiled at her.
Alam nya kung bakit gusto kong lumipat.
Ayaw nya lang pag usapan ito.
Alam nyang masasaktan ako pag binalikan pa namin lahat.
Jaze knows everything about me.
She was there since day 1.
"si limme din lilipat sa Klevin"
"But seriously ivy, di mo naman kailangang lumayo eh" she said with comforting eyes.
"I need too Jaze"
Eto yung first time na pag uusapan ulit namin to.
"Maraming memories dito Jaze, Di ko kayang kalimutan sya kung araw araw ko pa rin syang makikita" I give her a assuring smile.
Gusto kong umiyak pero pinigilan ko.
Ayokong makita nyang nasasaktan na naman ako.
"ayokong mastuck dito Jaze, I want to start again, I want to be ha...ppy again" while saying those words nakita ko kung gaano nasasaktan si jaze para sakin.
I love you very much jaze. Ugh
"I'm sorry jaze"
"It's okay ivy, malungkot lang ako kasi magkakalayo tayo, ayokong pigilan ka kasi gusto kong sumaya ka ulit" yumuko sya tila nahihirapan sa lahat ng nangyayari.
"Gusto kong malimutan mo na sya"
"He's a great guy, but I think you and him are not compatible"
"He's not the one for you, and you are not for him too" jaze smile revealing her dimple.
Jaze is very genuine.
Kahit malungkot sya para sakin, She always try to cheer me up.
"Time will heal you ivy"
"So take your time, heal every scars in your heart"
"I'm always here for you"
"I know jaze thank you for everything"
I hugged her.
So tight.
I don't want to leave her here.
But I need to fix myself first.
For the past years I've been so selfless.
I love him more than I'm allow to love him.
I love him more than myself.
And that was my biggest regret in my life.
My healing may take so much time.
Wounds will never heal easily.
But I will try my best to be the best version of me.
