By My Side

chapter 5

Allan

That couldn't be true.I was in utter shock and disbelief.I wish she was just a whore like the rest were but I knew that wasn't true.The stain on my bed sheets was a clear sign that I was the one who took her purity.
The look on her face showed she wasn't happy with the outcome just as I was.The caramel colour on her skin was replaced with a more pale and and lifeless one.she was fighting with herself to hold in her tears and I hoped she did.
I hoped she had it in her to hold herself together because I wasn't planning to be emotionally available for her.responsible or not that's not what I wanted and I wasn't going to play house just because she was pregnant.

We walked out of the hospital and I offered to drop her back to her place.

"Address"
I asked and she gave me the directions.It was a long uncomfortable silence and she had bigger balls to break it than me.

Talk about being a man.

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Tessa

"Wh-at a-re we go-ing t-o do?"

Allan::"what are we going to do?"he asked with a raised voice.
Allab::"it's not about what we are going to do its about what you are going to do.he spoke hitting the honk of the car.

"Figure out what you are going to do I do not care.and for the record I don't do we with my one night stands.Just because I broke your virginity dosent mean I'm responsible for that."

"Wha-"
"Get the fuck out of my car." It was then that I realized we were outside my block.I took a long breath and looked back at him one more time.
It wasn't that hard to see what all the ladies loved about him.He had rich jet black hair with lots of volume.Stong arched brows and eyelashes so thick it could be illegal and his eyes ,they were deep and catastrophic ,a vivid baby blue as a great body of water that softly melted into a milky green.He had distinct cheekbones and an angular jaw.His pale skin made him look devilishly handsome.

And he was but none of that mattered because whether or not handsome he was a complete asshole and jerk..

I opened the car door and left without a word. I had so much to say ,so much to ask but I couldn't trust myself to hear the ugly responses that flew out of his mouth.

I walked into the small space I called home and crushed into a valley of tears.My mum always said my tears were up close to my eyes and the moment they were triggered I couldn't hold them in.And that was true I was a crying mess.

Everytime something went wrong I would cry.

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I dont know how long I had been on the same spot on the floor.Somewhere in between my cries and cursing I dozed off.Now I was up and my stomach was really painfull.at first I thought it was because of the uncomfortable position on the floor but then it got worse.

I took the doctors card from the hospital and called him.I had long made the decision I was going to keep the baby and I would never forgive myself if something happened to it.Not even when it was three weeks old.

It was still part of me.I explained my issue to the doctor and he said I was working on an empty stomach thus the cause of the pains.
I made my was to the kitchen and made a sandwich and a hot cup of tea.

I needed to take care of myself as per the doctors words ,the rest would fall into place and I planned to do exactly that.