Blind... ( Zarry Stylik )

Chp 8: Forgive me...

Quote of the day: Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes it worth it....

Zayn’s P.O.V

I couldn’t think nor breathe because….. Well becau-

"Zayn are you okay?" Louis asked with a small smile.

I nod slowly holding my head in my hands while sitting down, and I slowly start to think, think about what I am going to do now!

"Mate you need to calm down okay?" Liam muttered.

"How can I Liam?! How can I calm down when we did that to HARRY!" I scream looking at him with anger and regret.

"I-I don-"

"No you don’t we don’t know too Liam! He doesn’t even know who did that to him! He has no idea…. And I am sick of that… I am sick of him just, he just doesn’t… I DON’T KNOW ANYMORE!" I scream.

I felt someone pull me tightly into their arms, and it didn’t feel right, it didn’t feel like I was supposed to be in their arms at all.

I look up to see Louis smiling at me, I smile back but keep thinking of what to do.

"What about my plan from today?" I mutter to myself.

"What plan?"Louis asks with confusion.

"I want, I want Harry to forgive me…" I whisper.

"Zayn he doesn’t know it’s you so keep it that way yea? Just don’t tell him and say you’re sorry for bullying him okay? It’s easy as that!" Louis smiles widely.

"I don’t think that’s a good idea Louis… What if someone tells him after Zayn is friends with him and then he will never forgive Zayn because he lied twice to him maybe a third time and I don’t think that will be too good on Zaynie here…." Liam said proudly.

"He’s right!" I sigh.

"What if I tell him but tell him after we are friends an-"

I was cut off by Liam shaking his head.

"No mate he will hate you more like I said before…"

"I don’t know what to do then!" I groan.

"Maybe you just shouldn’t try." Louis shrugs.

I look up to him with shock and confusion.

"Why would you say that? You hurt him too Louis! I thought you would be the one to feel the most sorry!" I growl

"Well I just hate to see you like this okay! You aren’t the same “Zayn” I know and I don’t like that at all! You are changing because of him Zayn and it’s only been a day!" Louis yells getting some attention.

"Well maybe because I want to get things right! Maybe because I actually care that I did something wrong! I WANT TO CHANGE!" I yell back.

"Hahahaha YOU change?! How the hell can YOU change Zayn? YOU are one of the most hated people in the whole school and you think YOU can change? YOU left your sisters without saying “good bye”! I at least said bye and took them out because I know that I can’t see them in 4 or 5 months! YOU were the one who made everyone hate Harry YOU were the one that made people scared to go near him, YOU were the one who made Harry have no friends! And YOU were the one that made him think he was worthless! He has one of the worst life’s I have ever seen and YOU made it so much worse Zayn! You think I don’t feel bad!? You think I don’t care huh?! Well I do! I care so fucking much because I was one of those people who HELPED you to hurt him! I was one of those people who made him suffer! I basically was dying in the summer holidays! I cried every night Zayn and you didn’t know I didn’t eat anything the only person who knew was Liam, because he cared, he cared about me he made me eat he made me get better. But guess what! I still feel like shit! Because of it! And so does Liam! He hates everything he did to Harry. He hates that he ruined his life….. And so am I…….. Why I don’t get why we started it too, and I really never want to! All I want, all I want is just for my life to be good… To get a great family and to have beautiful kids…… Zayn, I don’t want my kids to know what I did to Harry. I don’t want them to know that their “father” was a bully and a bully who took someone’s eye site…. I-I just want my kids to look up to me, be good people find a good wife or husband…… Just someone to take care of them, an-and I can’t do that when I know I have hurt someone. I don’t want any of that, I didn’t want any of this… But it’s too late now and I just want it to end. And one day it will, it will end… And that day is soon."

He looked at me with a tear stained face.

"You think I can’t change?" I whisper.

"Zay-"

"No! Do.You.Think.I.Can’t.Change!" I hiss.

"Yes, yes I do Zayn… You haven’t changed for your mum nor Perrie… How can you change for a kid that you used to bully?" He whispered.

"That doesn’t mean he can’t change now Louis… That doesn’t mean he can’t do the right thing." Liam whispered back.

"I-I can’t do this right now, please don’t follow me…" Louis squeaked.

With that he ran away pushing past people who were looking at him with shock.

Liam looked at me with sad eyes and regret.

"Go… Go find him." I smile as I turn around and walk away from him knowing he would go help Louis.

I sigh as I start to walk to my room going past girls who were trying to get my attention by doing some of the most stupid things, like pulling the skirts higher and there tops more down.

It will take me about five minutes to get to my dorm so I put my headphones in my ears and let the music flow.

I hum “thinking out loud” by Ed Sheeran. Knowing people were probably listening to me as I walked past them but not caring that much about it.

I was about one minute away from my door so I put my headphones into my pocket and start to get my keys out and put them in the lock, but stop as I feel the door already open?

I put my key back into my pocket and peek through the door and see nothing? Who’s in my room?! What if it’s a robber! Or a murder! I WILL DIE! I AM TO YOUNG TO DIE! WHAT IF, WHAT IF THEY RAP-

*Thud*

I felt confusion….. Did my murder just fall down?

I quickly grab the umbrella and hold it like a bat in case.

I look around and notice someone was on the floor groaning.

I walk closer and notice a bunch of curls…..

Hmmmm? Who has curls? I know this? Maybe he is ne-

HARRY! HARRY HAS CURLS! I look down and scream a not so manly scream…. I feel my eyes widen as I see the boy that I have bullied for years on the floor.

"Harry are you okay?!" I heard someone scream.

And with that I ran….. I ran out the door and ran out of the school………. This is going to be so much harder than I thought I mutter.

I look up to the sky and sigh.

What am I going to do?! 

New chappy :P Zaynie is gonna see whats comming to him! So happy he is seeing the light now. And poor Louis and Liam :( Whats gonna happen? Ooooo now you know who he has for a roommate :D Hope you liked this chapter! Have a good day bia!

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