For the Love of Chittaphon

Episode 4: Smile

April 23, 2019

    "Wake up babe."

    Ten squirmed under the covers, rolling over in bed with his face in the pillow.

    "Bae."

    Ten groaned and lifted his head to look up.  Winwin was shaking his head sitting up in bed beside him.  It had been over twenty days since they'd started seeing one another and it was amazing.  Ten couldn't stop smiling whenever he was with Winwin.  The group had noticed the change and it was pleasant.  They all supported them and agreed that Winwin was a positive light in Ten's life.  He was what Ten needed.  Ten slowly lifted up so that he was resting in Winwin's lap.  As if on cue, Winwin started stroking Ten's hair, putting his phone down to give his attention to his boyfriend.  They'd made the official change from "seeing each other" to "dating" a few days ago, April 20th.

    Their choreography video had such an amazing response to reviewers and reaction channels all over Youtube.  Ten was shocked and Winwin was happy.  It proved how well they worked together and how their chemistry was amazing.  They'd already started thinking about the future and what kind of video to present to their fans and the world next.  Ten yawned allowing the comfort to overtake him.

    "Thank you," Ten said, looking up a Winwin.

    "For?" Winwin asked a little confused.

    "Just being here," Ten said, grabbing Winwin's hand and kissing it gently.  Winwin blushed and leaned down to kiss Ten's forehead.  They'd yet to explore anything more than kissing with each other.  Winwin was nervous.  He'd never had sex with a guy before, and he'd been studying videos online and trying to figure out the best way to please Ten when the time came.  If anyone found his search history, they'd probably die from secondhand embarrassment.

"I should be thanking you for giving us a chance.  Do you have any plans today?"

"Dance practice later on, why what did you have in mind?" Ten asked, seeing the look in Winwin's eyes.  The fact that they hadn't been intimate once since they'd started on this journey together was proof to him that Winwin wasn't in it just for the sex.  It's not to say he hadn't tried a couple of times, but Winwin always seemed to suggest something else.  He looked at Winwin who seemed to be contemplating something.

"Nothing, I was just curious," Winwin said mentally beating himself up for not initiating.  He wanted this, he wanted to please Ten, but whenever he thought about it his nerves always turned him away from it.  "What do you want for breakfast?"

Ten sat up in the bed and turned to face Winwin, sitting Indian style in front of him.

"We said we'd be honest with each other right?  I can tell something's bothering you.  Tell me, bae."

Winwin looked at him and sighed.  He felt less than because of it, but they did promise and he wanted to be everything Ten needed.

    "I'm scared that you might get bored of me," Winwin said.

    "Why would you think that?" Ten asked, reaching out and grabbing Winwin's right hand.

    "Because we haven't had sex yet."

    Ten gave him a sincere smile and rubbed his hand.

    "Listen, I don't want to force you into anything you don't want to do bae.  I care too much about you to make you do something you're not comfortable doing."

    "It's not that I'm not comfortable doing it, it's just I." Winwin paused and looked down at his hand.

    "What bae?" Ten said leaning down to look into Winwin's eyes.